People have been asking me about my Facebook status, “I am not like you. I can’t get use to life without you. So quit asking me to if you don’t want me to forget you.”. Well, it is not difficult to guess who it is referring to, and in case you really do not know, the person is him naturally.

It is pretty tough when he is gone, like really. Sometimes when I get tired, I can’t help but think of his shoulder although I know he is miles away from me and leaning on the wall can just make me cry. Probably it is only a week that he is gone so I haven’t really got use to it yet.

I was just looking through my archives and I realized how much we really been through, I mean there are people who witnessed it too, so this relationship, there is no way am I going to give up, no matter how tired I am in these 7 months, how painful it gets, this 7months won’t be the reason of a break-up if its really going to happen between us.

There are unhappy times between the both of us, it is not rare, but they usually pass very fast so I am not worried about the both of us. Still, sometimes I really wonder what is he thinking because he said something unknowingly that hurt me quite deeply. He assured me it was not the way I thought it was but it was still scary to hear it out from his voice.

I miss him alot. It’s not something you can imagine because even I am shocked by how much I can miss him. He is able to affect me and my work progress which is a rare thing because usually nothing can keep me away from work. Still, I need to indulge myself in school in order for the day to pass. It is exactly 190 days before he is back. He will be home soon.

I know we can do this. :)