Last night was a horrible night for me, really damn horrible.

Hurting you was never what I wanted to do.
Your love to me is so important, very important, but I know it is not right to hold you back.
Going away from you, hurts me because you have always been there for me.
Assuring me, comforting me, supporting me, giving me things I don’t deserve.
Many a times, I ask myself, why now? Why at this time, when it is so so wrong?
Why now, when my guards are up to protect myself? Wrong time.

I couldn’t sleep last night. A friend called me in the wee hours and I told him about it.
I understood what he said, I knew it all along, but I can’t get myself to face it.

Now, I can only pray that time will heal, time will pass so everything gets better.

Yes, I do want everything to get better, so much so, sometimes, I do it wrongly.