I am going mad, crazy.
The tension I have been putting myself these days is higher than I have ever reached.
Ever since the interview from Wunderman, my mind has always been on it.
& I really got a bad feeling.

I can’t help it. I know there is really not anything I can do.
& usually when I know there is nothing I can do, I just let it be, except this time I can’t.
I have no idea why.

Interim 2 for P4 is so near. & I am only done with what?
Screens? Flash, I am not even halfway. Sigh.
Why is this happening to me? It never happened to me.
My confidence level is running so low. WHY!?
I am being so pessimistic! WHY?!

Not to mention, I am also doing freelance job.

This is killing me. 4 projects, and OSIP.
KILLING ME.

A friend was chatting with me today and I was telling her these stuff and she said that it is so not me.
I also know it is not me, but I really can’t help it.
There is a fear there. I just don’t know how to express it.
ARGH. I just hate it when I am like that. This sucks. :’(

I need a breather. :(

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On a slightly happier note, I managed to catch up with this friend of mine.
I should say he is a pretty “special” friend. Haha.
Technically I know him for 4 years, but we never meet, never talked, we just text and it is the VERY once in a while kind of thing.
Saw him on Skype yesterday and started a chat with him. Haha. We chatted for like 3 or 4 hours, till 7am in the morning.
Ok, we talked about the most random and weirdest stuff. Haha.
Best, we even opened video chat and that was like the first time in 4 years we actually saw each other.
It was all pretty funny, but I enjoyed it. It was fun. Haha.

Ok. I need my slumber.
Argh, still feeling down.
Pray for me ok. Please.