you know what is the worst way to break up with somebody? oh, no wait, correction, you know what is the worst reason to break up with anybody? The reason is,
“I am not worthy of your love.”;
“You deserve someone better than me.”;
“You are really good, but it’s me, it’s just me”;

All these are fucking crap shit excuses. Because you are not the person who decides who is perfect. When girls choose you, they know exactly who is perfect for them. They know. Girls are not some bimbotic idiots who can’t think for themselves. A girl’s youth is limited, is short, you think they are willing to waste their time on guys they think are not perfect enough for them? Sorry, sad to say, girls will never waste their time on anything they think its not worth it, at least at that point of time. So guys, don’t decide for us who you think is perfect for us.

And you know why those are another lame excuses? Because they make it sound like they are thinking for you. They made it sound as though, they have gone through careful thinking and come to a conclusion that they really are not good enough for you. They made it sound like they feel damn guilty and damn sorry that it has to come up to this situation. Better yet, they made it sounds as though you are perfect and that their inferior self does not deserve to be loved by you. Amazing isn’t it, the wonders these excuse can do? Then what happen to the girls? The start feeling that they are the ones that hurt you and they start feeling all so guilty about it but what is the truth? The ugly truth?!

The boys will start living their lives as though nothing happened, as though they just ended a dream, a game. They start going out and enjoy the freedom they desire, finding the butterflies and flowers they see along the way. And what happen to the girls they deemed as perfect? They start crying and feel their hearts shattering, they start closing up themselves and don’t wish to see anybody. They lose their appetite, lose their sleep, lose their weight, they can no longer focus on their daily life. In worse cases, they become anorexic, they may get bulimia, they start getting depression and finally, some decide to even take the leap of death. The boys? Do they see a shit? No, they don’t. They just live their fucking lives.

You know how boys like to make things worst? You know how its like that during the first one week to one month, it is like the most sensitive period when girls will always be thinking of asking for a second chance, they have so many questions filled in their mind, and they hunger for the answers so they don’t really want to break contact with their ex-boyfriends. So they will converse with them hoping to get an answer, wishing those answers can heal their pain or at the very least, let them feel better. And what do the boys do? They give hope! They continue saying stuff that makes the girl feel as though he still have feelings for her but it’s just that he doesn’t know what to do in order to carry on so he feel it’s best to just end the relationship. Then the girl will start living in a hallucination that this is really the case, that the boy still loves her but its for her best interest that he is doing this. Then the girl will start waiting, waiting for the boy to return to her side, stupidly believing that the boy still loves her but what she doesn’t know is that the boy is already tired of her and is just using her.

And what happens at the end of the day? The boy who can no longer take it, will blow up at the girl and starts spilling all the bad points about her and the innocent girl who was merely loving him the way she could gets her heart shattered all over again and this time, the boy decides to cut all ties with her, living her alone in the middle of nowhere, not even taking a look back at her. Worth it?

I’m sure many girls know how it feels and at some point of time, even been through it before. And I can say it proudly, I did. Just that the boy I loved, looked back at me at the end of the day.

TO THE BOY I’M SPEAKING IN REFERENCE TO, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. The following message is meant for you:
You know very well who you are, and I am no longer afraid to offend you, because look who offended who first. And so here I am going to tell you clearly,

one, I eat, I eat well so don’t be a hypocrite about it. At the front, you tell our mutual friends that everyone should take turn a day to accompany me for my meals and behind the back of them, say that I’m seeking attention by not eating and that everyone is being a bootlicker by asking me to eat. I do not need bootlickers around me and they are basically showing true concern for me, unlike you, showing concern only because you do not want to be see as a despicable cad.

second, i do not seek attention. at least I don’t seek YOUR attention because I plainly don’t need it. You are not some hunk who I am desperately seeking love or lust from and too bad, you do not have the charm either. You don’t even know basic hygiene. Your attention is not even worth seeking. And I don’t even go to you when I am upset. Maybe in the past I do, especially when I have problems with my boyfriend but look, I don’t need you at all.

third, how I treat my boyfriend is really NOT your concern. Maybe he is your friend but from what I see, you don’t even know what does the word friend even mean. Because you are only capable of throwing away old friends and you have new friends as though they are your toys. Who are you to even treat them that way? HUH? WHO? Friends don’t treat friends as toys. And you know what, this isn’t the first time you are doing this. Remember 2-3 years ago? When you were still in sec 4? I bet you never even learn from your lesson. Sure, I may not treat my boyfriend good but you know what, so do you. You don’t even treat your girlfriend good. Let alone your friend. If you say I have things to learn, I say you have more to learn.

Last, you have no idea what you are playing with do you? You lost, totally lost. You lost the basic respect from people. From the ones who were with you when you were down and out. I’m waiting till the day when karma befalls on you.

Ok. That’s all I have to say for tonight. In fact, that’s all I have to say this this guy. Nights everybody.

 

Farhah, this is for you. :)