You know what I want to do now?
This is what I want to do now, I want to PAR-TEH! Like for real.
I want to rebel, not against my parents, but against life. I want to let myself loose and be free, free from everything.
I want to stay up all night, drinking and dancing to the beat with all my favorite people, till my hair is messy, till I drop to the ground, till the night ends.
That is what I want to do now.
Alas, I can’t do it. Strict family, or otherwise, strict boyfriend.
Sometimes I wonder why must I listen to people when people don’t listen to me.
All because I don’t want to cause trouble, but somehow, trouble seems to have its way of finding me.
Like as though it has a map that will always mark me as its f..king destination. Why can’t it bloody leave me alone, even for one second.
Every time a problem is solved, something will happen again. Haven’t I had enough?
I am already so sick of trouble, but why aren’t trouble sick of me? WHY?!
Yeah, it is the sick negative minded girl ranting at her blog again, but I don’t f..king care. If life has its way of finding trouble, I make sure I find a trouble with my blog. Argh! Let’s wait and see what happens tonight. Oh f..k. I need to sleep. I am damn sleepy. Suddenly thought of today when Shi Peng was sleeping in senior lab. I want to sleep too!
Neh, I have to do some hotel shit and I’m going to use the logo I made for Evon&co. Makes my life simpler.
Flash is so interesting but it can be nerve wrecking and luckily I have a patient lecturer who would withstand all my bombarding questions.
I need something to distract me like during the day, because during the day, my mind has nothing but work and it keeps me away from negative thoughts.
& I think it’s because I have been too slack the last block, that’s why I am procrastinating my work. I need to start on work like now. Ok. Imma go back to my work.
kthxbye.