Just got home from my short Malaysia trip and it was a fruitful one too. :D
I bought two computer games and I am super pleased with it.

& I read one of my girlfriend’s blog just not long ago about her birthday wish and actually she is having almost the same lifestyle as me.
But I guess mine is just slightly better. Freedom needs to be knocked into parent’s head sometimes I swear. They blame us for almost every
fucking thing. They blame us for not caring enough.

I guess as teenagers, we are trying to live to the best, making sure that we are get to enjoy ourselves and at times I do envy those that
can actually hang out late. & it’s not like I’m doing bad stuff. I remembered being blamed for not caring enough. Look, it’s not that I don’t
wanna care, but I am too tired too. I can’t even bothering caring about myself. Parents just don’t see the injuries we have, they actually truly
believes that they protect us well enough to not have injuries but the thing is, we do ok, get it? But you know what, I choose not to tell you
because I get blame for it and not cared for.

See here, I am a girl who won’t go to anybody unless I really need to and when I need to, it just means I wanted to feel that someone
actually cares for me. If I tell you I need you, I don’t need your further lectures tyvm. I need care & concern. Ok? & not some fking lectures
and then make me feel worse. What is the point of telling you I’m in trouble and all you do is pour more fuel to it? Think about it.

& to my bf who thinks I need to grow up,
the same goes for you. 

Alot has been going through my mind today and I still have not come up with a solution. Oh boy.

Oh well. Goodnights. :)