I know there are some kind souls who read my blog and are really worried for me. Like so many emo posts at one shot, hardly happens to me eh?
Usually just one post and it will be over.
I.am.fine.now.Really.
Ok, maybe not just yet but definitely feeling better. Guess I am picking up now.
I also wanna thank a few people or rather 2 people whom I am really grateful for – Shermeen and Gary.
Couldn’t have got pass it without you 2 fabulous people. :) So thank you.
In a nutshell, I am going through this very sharp turn in my romance and it’s really god dammit sharp one.
I will not say much though. I have been through the pain I will not think about it again especially when it’s so muthafking pain. & I didn’t even know it would hurt that much until these days. But I have learn to take things in my own stride and that’s why I’m feeling better.
Of course, work did help a little although I get tired easily when I didn’t have much sleep these days. Totally deprived of it.
Seeing my friends being happy and all also helped and of course Yanting who spends her entire morning everyday with me because she is also stuck in Jap class. :) Thanks laopo. Music plays a part too. :)
As for the romance part, I think space is really crucial now and a breather must be take for our good. I am learning to seek happiness from something other than love. I mean, love makes me happy, makes me the happiest but there are other things worth for me to be truly happy as well. And yes, it is time I see the world in a different light even if I am stuck in Singapore. It’s time, as he said, for me to grow up and stand on my own feet. Even though sometimes I just want to depend on him but I gotta understand that he won’t always be there and when he can’t be there, I mustn’t feel lonely. Period.
It’s time I find back my independence and maturity I had last year. Before I met him again. The time when I faced loneliness alone and still survived through.
My life can’t be as bad as it was right? I been through it, survived it and still as happy as can be. Yup, Priscilia Penny Ray, GANBETTE! :D
I removed my tagboard too in case if some of you are searching for it. Ah Pong was still searching for my love calendar. Silly guy.
I think my blog is where I write how I feel, about my day, and I will write whatever I want to write. Comments are therefore not welcome, unless it’s important, then the more you should tell me in person. Nah. Kidding. I just think it’s redundant. Besides, mine isn’t some Miss Xiaxue, and my life is mundane to some people, but so be it. It is as colorful as it should be.
& finally I learnt, if things are meant to be, it is meant to be. No point suspecting or being oh-so-paranoid about it. Have faith in myself.
Faith, I am coming for you. :)
If things are meant to end at a certain time, it will come to an end, the only thing I can decide, is if I’m gonna make it a beautiful or an ugly end. :)
As Shermeen told me, even love has its expiry date. But I think my romance’s expiry date aren’t as near just yet. I’m gonna decide when is that expiry date if its ever gonna come and if I am gonna end it with a painful stomach or heart in this case.
I feel so much better after all these days. Thanks to all those who brought smiles and laughter to me for the past days, weather you know it or not, it still makes a significance to my day.
Goodnights.
P/s. Imma looking forward to USS, or more like the hanging out with the gfs part. Oh Farhah!
