I don’t know what to expect anymore. I am really not in the mood to continue doing my work. It has been 3 days. 3 whole days and the time pass so slowly, I wonder if it’s really 3 days.

These 3 days, I waited, and waited and waited. Nothing came. At all. I am really so upset about it. I tell myself, never mind, give some more time, the day hasn’t ended, there is still time. I keep giving myself excuses over and over again, lying to myself, giving myself hope when I know well enough that nothing is going to come but yet I still want to continue cooking up excuses for him and myself. Am I retarded?

I guess I will just carry on waiting.