My readers would probably feel that I am an emo girl. Well, I would not term myself as emo because I do not hate myself, that is for sure.
But I do get tired at times and I just want to close my doors and remain on my own, to let myself be drown in whatever happen and I will re-open my doors to the world again. Life isn’t that simple, I know, but you just got to live with it.
I am trying my best, doing my best to be who I want to be. I am not the most perfect person on earth, there isn’t one anyway, but neither am I near perfect, I am not that egoistic also. I know where my standards are. There are many brilliant, pretty, smart, elegant what say you people out there, envy them for all I care but that is them, not me. I don’t care about them, I care about myself.
I find myself getting hurt easily these days, every word is sensitive, every action is sensitive. I try my best to consider for everyone’s feelings(expect those I don’t like, duh!), I try my best to live up to what people see of me then sometimes I would wonder, is that me? Well, yeah, it is. These people shape me into finding myself. I guess.
Shutting my doors is what I want to do tonight, but I told myself, I got to push myself to another level, I must not take a step back. If life wants to take one step back, I should step in front even more. I want to go back to those days when I wasn’t so particular about how people behave, react, respond and live and those days when I can immediately accept apology from someone, and I really mean accepting it. I miss those days when people explained their situation to me, I would feel sympathy for them, and don’t even an apology from them. I miss those days when I was still a girl who didn’t know how ugly this world can really be.
Whatever. On a happy note,
I got photos!!!! Like finally! I can’t remember when was the last time I had photos of my own up here. Haha. I am so going to flood you guys with my big fat face! Ok, maybe not the fat part. Haha!!! You guys shall die! Haha. Kidding. I still love all of you! :)
A day to commemorate, the end of the truly hated Project1. Headed down to Shermeen’s house for steamboat lunch! :D
Before heading down, baby and I had a cam-whoring session with his new G11.
I like his camera because the LCD screen can flip so very easy to take photos. :))
Shermeen’s dog welcomed us with its high pitch bark. :D
Had a round of poker before having lunch.
Sumptuous! I was so full, I swear. :D
I want more!!!
The couples of the biantai group! Haha. :)
And some individual….(don’t blame me hor, R is the photographer)
Weisian.
Ah Pong.
Evon.
Sharon.
Hanlin. And his signature pose.
How can I miss out on this guy? Ronney.
Unfortunately, me.
How come Shermeen don’t have ah??? Humpt!
I did have some personal cam-whoring session while the rest were setting up the mahjong…
Hello. Look so pale la.
I am staring at you…haha…
Scare you ah le ba???
I had a date with baby the next day, if you all can remember.
Hmmm. Not much pics for this, just a couple. :)
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Haha! I am so happy. So many photos now. Haha. Oh, and I bought a new thumbdrive today.
Baby having exams tomorrow, good lucks dear! :D
Hope you guys won’t have nightmares seeing this.
Goodnight. loves!
