Have not been updating regularly. I am sorry. Just that I have been really busy. Busy not only because of schoolwork and all. But busy in maintaining life. Pushing myself to the boundary of another level and watching how I handle it. I lost control I should say.

Nope, I didn’t breakdown. Just feel that I am not that weak anymore which is not a good thing in a way. Being strong is like being independent already and you just change. I think I am changing. Hmmm.

So anyway, basically I am sleeping at 2am everyday, doing my project and all. I am going to miss out doingP1 this weekend which also means I have to chiong during the weekdays so I won’t be lag behind from the rest. Heehee.

Have been spending much time with Uriah, Gary, Marline and Min’Er at the library doing Project 1. 

I really no longer know what to do. The road is not clear, there is no signage. I am trying my best to get out of this maze but somehow the fog is getting thicker and thicker. And I hope I can get out of the maze and reach the ending point with no regrets of the route I take but the problem is I don’t even know what is the next step to take. I am really lost. And nobody is leading me. I am saying relationship.

I am really sorry if I am not the best because I admit I am not the best but I am trying to be but sometimes, the best may not be prefect either.

I know in his heart I am not there yet. I am trying to be. I suddenly have no faith in us. And my promise that my love will not waiver, is starting to.

Baby, I need you to keep it there but sometimes I think, you never had faith in us from the start. Baby, is it true?