A Midnight Ballet Story

The Queen on Teacher’s Day and tomorrow’s Chalet

Monday, August 31, 2009 @ 6:44 PM

Went back to secondary school with Biantai today.
Concert is boring, like totally that I did not even bother to continue watching and the worst thing?
Most of the songs used were MJ’s. Get a life people.

Went for lunch at KFC and my stomach-ache with which I prayed not to come, came.
Was having much difficulty eating my lunch because of the throbbing and increasing pain.
Went to Hanlin’s house after that. The pain just got worst by then, I was kneeling on the floor and leaning on Vanessa.
Thx Laopo. :)

Toilet I went, came out and took 40 winks.
Was napping away while Ronney was playing the piano, the rest were like coming in and out.
I know one hor. Haha. I was only semi-asleep. Haha.

Felt much better and started using Hanlin’s desktop.
Played poker with them as well.
Discussed about the chalet thing as well. Haha. Bet it would be fun.
Wa lao. Ah Pong the question is dumb de lor.

Went to Prime with them after that to get some of the chalet stuff.
Was damn funny with the way they choose things and decide where to buy and when to buy.

That’s about it.
Thinking about the Chalet brings back so much memories.
I am going to put that song in my handphone. For memories’ sake. :)

The Queen on Size 24

Sunday, August 30, 2009 @ 11:38 PM

Guess what.
I bought a new pair of jeans of waistline 24.
And.
I’m wearing it at my hips.

Wow. A waistline jeans of 24 at my hipline. Wonderful.

The Queen on Charms

@ 10:18 PM

I customized my bracelet again. :)

Ok. This time, I went to Mel’s, so it’s rather expensive, but mummy knows I like so she bought the charms for me.
She even had the intentions to buy another bracelet for me, but cause I don’t like Mel’s bracelet, I saw no point. I still love my own.

Charms are gifts of sincerity. I think. They show how much you understand the person you buy the charms for because there are so many charms and everyone likes different things, and they can show it from the choice of charms they buy.

I spent my day doing my assignments and mummy reckons I should go out in the evening for some air, so we went Chinatown and bought some of the daily necessities and home we went.

KIM STILL HAVE NOT REPLY MY EMAIL! I GIVE UP LE LA! I SHALL HAND IN WHAT I HAVE DONE! I DON’T CARE LE. I SWEAR!!!

The Queen on Sick, Assignments, BT Video and Hair Steaming

Saturday, August 29, 2009 @ 11:36 PM

So many things revolving and so little time.
So many things happening and so little energy.

My body is crying for help but I can’t afford to stop.
My health just wanted to shout stop but I decided to push it further.

I am 3/4 done with my latest assignments because I told myself I must get it done before Monday and I promise I will print it on Monday then I don’t need to sweat during the chalet. Assignments had been coming in, real assignments that is.

It has been so long since I last did so much work, cracking my brains open to get more inspirations.

Yesterday, I held on to my head and it felt like it was almost exploding, I was so close to tears and I wished someone was there to comfort me, no, I learnt to get thorough things on my own. I took it to my own stride and decided to rest for the night which is the reason why I am doing so much work tonight. Since 4plus till now. Non-stop except for dinner. Wanted to go church with Vanessa but I know my body would shack away.

Thanks to God’s blessing, besides the starting of my work, I did not face with much problems. Even the ideas I got this afternoon managed to be put out nicely.
I am left with my last 2 boxes. Priscilia, You can do it!

Hallelujah to Limin’s laptop, I think the exporting would be successful.
Pray hard my dear Biantai that my efforts would not be wasted, one of the reason why I’m ill is for this video and let it be blessed and may it be successful.

Did treatment for my hair, I nearly slept through it, can you imagine how tired I was?
But I chose to flip thorough the magazine to see the typography in it and perhaps get some inspiration from them.
Oh, I am going to start on my journal tomorrow. I promise.

I really hope I would not be so weak during the chalet but my body is tiring from everything.
I know I can push it further to give my life the best shot.
Priscilia, you can’t afford to fall anymore.
Get up on your feet and push those boundaries…
You know you can do it…

Ray on Change of song and update of LV

Friday, August 28, 2009 @ 12:52 PM

Hello everyone! Ray here. Haha. Long time never heard of me right? I bet you guys missed me. Anyway, I am here on Pris’s instruction because she wanted to change her blog song but could not find the time to do so, so she emailed me and I was shocked when I saw the title. It was so not her style. Anyway, as her twin, I know why she liked this song and it suits both her and me in our current situation.

May I present – Hush Hush by Pussycat dolls.

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, i never needed strength
My love for you was strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgements
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never ask for help, i take care of myself,
I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So look at me and listen to me because

I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, i get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
I never needed words
I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way i let go
From everything i wanted when you came along
But i'm never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong

And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So you will listen when i say
Baby

First i was afraid i was petrified
Kept thinking i could never live without you by my side
But i spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
But i grew strong i learned how to carry on

Hush, hush, hush hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken baby
Oh no, not i
I will survive
As long as i know how to love
I know i will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
And i'll survive
I will survive
Hey hey..

Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, i get the final say,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

This is the 2009 version, she specifically asked for the one with the “I will survive” remix in it, which I agree is way better than without it. Haha.
So update on my life.

Well, as you all already know, I am working in LVPD and I still am. Been really busy at work and there was this challenging case that was assigned to me, Grissom even had to sent Warrick and Nick to help me, nevertheless, we broke the case and I just came back to the lab from court because I was the investigator in charge. Lucky Nick and Warrick. Grissom was nice enough to give us 3 a break and so, Nick and I decided to fly back to Singapore.

Been long since both of us came back, together. Anyway, I have with Nick for nearly a year, not like Pris, never last more than a month with any guy. Something must be wrong with her. Still, because of the last case, Nick and I had a heated argument, which kind of pissed Warrick off because he was afraid it would affect the progression of the case. Yeah, Warrick knows that Nick and I had a different relationship with the others. Greg also knows. Cath knows as well. So far only Grissom and Sara don’t know. If they knew, I would have to leave.

Alright. Nick is pestering me to bring him eat the local food. Think I will bring him to find Pris first then eat lunch together, she has been really busy, have to make sure she eats. Toodles.

The Queen on Working into the night

@ 12:25 AM

I am in love with my bracelet and so, I am going to wear it everyday.
Charm bracelet are the sweetest things on earth and the best thing is, Precious Touts actually sell the bracelet at only $1.90!!! And not that the quality is bad at all. The charms are also the same price. My god. So cheap la!!! Usually the bracelet itself cost like $20 over so this is really a steal.

Anyway, the heart is mine. Nice right? Can’t remember where I got it from. Got the salesperson to cling it on for me and I bought a “P” charm as well, now dangling at one end of the bracelet. I am considering to get the “R” charm as well. R for Ray you know. And maybe hang it at the other end. Omg. That would be the perfect bracelet I would ever have. Ok. I am so getting it!!!
Plus, PT charms hang on need not use pliers, it’s a clip on thing so I can remove it anytime I want. Hooray!!!

OK. Wishes one side. Haha.
This block by far, is considered O---K.
I won’t say it’s very busy, that is if I compared to my first block. Still, it has been long since I felt this busy and working into the night. Think my body is not adapting very well and erm, well, the inside feels like it is tearing apart.
With assignments on hand, along with BT video and trying to ensure that my life is in track, I am starting to fall apart.
Think a good sleep will do the trick. I don’t wanna fall sick during Biantai’s Chalet.

Anyway, update, I have completed BT video. That is one thing off the list. I am going to export it tomorrow and see if there is a need to edit it further.
Things will be better tomorrow. I felt really weak today.

Goodnights everyone.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009 @ 11:21 PM

Hello. This is a testing post.
To test what font I should use.

The Queen on My answer to my questions

@ 3:37 PM

Long post everyone. You can don't read it.

You walk away in silence,
As if I started the lies.
You look back and smirk
To see the pain in my eyes.

I just dont get how you feel
That I'm the one that's wrong.
I dont understand how you say
That I just don't belong.

My heart begins to pound
As I look at you with hate.
Knowing full well, no matter what,
You're the one I want to date.

I know the feelings you have,
I know that you dont care.
But I don't get how I love you,
Anytime and anywhere.

I have always believed there is goodness in any man and that includes every single people, including the people who harmed me and the people who hurt me. I always believed so and will always believe on.

These days, many people have been asking,

"So Prissy, do you still like him?"

"But how do you feel about him now?"

"Do you still cry because of him"

"Will you still give him a chance?"

"Will you still like him in future?"

"Are you two friends already?"

"Are you all still talking?"

"Do you still hate him?"

No, I am not here to bad mouth him, not anymore, I am here to give an answer, to the question everyone has been asking and most importantly, I had been asking. I have not been clear of the answers and yes, I do still write in that diary. Not often though. However, now I am clear. Very clear and I think it is time I come clear to myself and everyone.

Question: Do I still like him?

Answer: Yes. Did I mention before, my love for him will never stop. It is like first love, you will not and never will forget him. Same goes for my case. Which also answer the question, do I hate him. No, I don't and never did I. However, my like for him is no longer love between lovers. It is more for a friend. We did not go back to the status we were before we decided to hold hands and walk on the path of love. We are now friends, not too close but not too far. Know what I mean? Hmm. Put it this way, we are close enough to show care but not close enough to quarrel. Get it now? There are still people out there who detest the idea of me being even friends with him. However I should say, there are goodness in everyone and not like he is very very very evil at all. I have seen, felt and sense his goodness, at least he was good to me before when he was supposed to. Indeed he had hurt me, but so did I and I am admitting it but I don't regret because there is a reason in why I hurt him and up till now, I don't see why should I regret, nevertheless, those were done when my mind was in a state of childishness and unclear. It is still a subconscious thing.

I will still recall the memories that we shared. It is personal, it is mine. Thinking and recalling about it does not imply that I still hopes for him. It is a chance to show that there is a reason for me to smile in this relationship, that what I gained were not only tears and sadness. There were happiness and sweetness. There was at least something worth for me to be happy about.

From time to time, I would look back at my archives and recall the feeling of what it was like to love him at that time and he loving me. What it was like to hold on because I knew he will always be by my side holding on to me and not letting me fall. I have always, for the past 3 years believed that I needed him. However, I have proved to myself and everyone that well, I don't really need him. I have went through so much during the time when he wasn't by my side. At the beginning, it was difficult, really difficult and each time I scroll through my phonebook, it will stop at his name and my finger would wonder if it should press the "send a message" button and each time, it decided to press the red button to exit instead. As time went by, I return back to the time when I need not depend on him. Come to think about it, it had been near 3 months since I text him because I was down and upset and just needed someone to hear me out. I have been depending on myself to get through each hurdle that I come across, I have used my own strength to get my life back. There is pride glowing but at the same time, there is pity because I still miss the times when I can text him anytime I wanted when I wanted to feel his presence which was ready for me.

I was happy because at least there was a time when he belonged to me, at least I had him to myself once and that should be enough. I loved him for the past one year plus and I waited till the day when he finally saw me and gave us a chance and that is maybe something I should be thankful about. Though it was shorter, though I believed we could last forever, though I always thought about our future but having it once is better than not having at all. It was personal, everything.

Thank goodness, I no longer cried about it anymore. At least miss natural pipe decided to stop leaking. I remembered crying myself to sleep almost every night because we kept quarreling about the same things, because our quarrels never come to a conclusion, because we both were so stubborn, we did not want to give in to the other. That is probably one characteristic that we both shared and that thing in common killed our relationship. We both are more stubborn than the other. We both are just head-strong and both of us did not see the consequences that it caused because we both probably had too much confidence in our relationship but the truth is, we were over-confident. And that's about it. Now, I don't get sad neither did I cry when I think of whatever happened, no use and no point. But that's not the reason. The reason is because I have finally face the truth that we both are a matter of past tense and there is no U-turn for both of us. That we will finally stop at where we are now.

In my diary, I wrote,

"From strangers to friends to close friends to siblings to close friends to siblings to couple to sibling to enemies(?) to acquaintance to friends. Our relation can't get more complicated than it already is."

I also wrote,

"You said this, 'both of us know what each other are thinking, but none of us are taking the first step.', at that time, I only smiled as a reply but now, I will say, 'maybe that first step was not meant to be taken at all' "

Haha. Long post. Heehee.

The Queen on Assignment 1 and dress of the day

Tuesday, August 25, 2009 @ 9:51 PM

Yo everyone.
I know I have not been blogging properly and no photos as well. So boring right?~

So, I will just put in some random photos to conclude my day.
I have only 20 mins of break before I continue on my next assignment also due tomorrow. Gosh.

Show you all my new shirt first. The one I bought from Far East.

Was supposed to buy it with Connie initially but the price was SGD22 when we first saw it.
Went back and it cost SGD18 now. Quite a steal, I think.

I will kill anyone who think this can be done in an hour
I will slap anyone who thinks this is very easy to do.

My last module is called typography and this is my first assignment.
Took me 2 days. Because I did 2 drafts each and excluding the imperfect ones.
I wanted it perfect. I just finished the above ones almost 10mins ago.

This is my newest dress. Bought from Far East also.
I finally got my high waist dress and I am so loving it. ONLY SGD29!!!
Cheap like siao. Worth it too.

Notice? All 3 of us in new clothes. Haha.

Alrights. That wraps up my day. Counting down to my chalet.
Love the world. Bye.

Decided to say this. I am going nuts cause of it.
OK…here goes!

Can you people out there please stop the MJ frenzy!!! Please. And no, I am not begging.
IT IS SUPPOSE TO STOP!!! IT’S BEEN SO LONG!
These days, wherever I go I hear MJ’s songs.
OK! I got the point, he is the international of the international star. He is the KING OF POP.
He started MOON WALKING and ~~HOLDING ONTO HIS DICK DANCE MOVE.~~
He is a mega charity person. He wants world peace. He believes in love for the next generation. OK! I GOT IT.
But face it, HE IS DEAD, GONE, MJ NO MORE!

Before he died, when he was at his downfall, when he was almost in bankruptcy, I HEAR NOBODY talking about him, NOBODY!
Nobody gives a damn when he was still alive besides going to his live concert which made it his last live concert. But, as I was saying, NOBODY GAVE A DAMN!
So why are you people still making a fuss about his death like he is not suppose to be dead.
With all due respect, I have nothing against MJ. I just can’t take it with the way people still alive using his death to make a living out of it.
If you love him, should not he be kept in your heart? Why use his death to earn money?
Not only that, people I know who were never a fan of MJ starts becoming a fan. WOW. What a difference.
So his death translate a message and that is, “cherish before they are gone”.

STOP IT!
Realistic and practical people who make business from his death disgust me.
People who hangs MJ around their mouth when they never use it irks me.
SO STOP IT!

Once again, I have nothing against MJ, he is dead. How can I have anything against him?
I dislike people who are still making a fuss of his death.
CAUSE, FACE THE FACT! PEOPLE COME AND GO! AND MJ IS NO GOD EVEN THOUGH SOME PEOPLE MAKE HIM OUT TO BE.

The Queen on last block

Monday, August 24, 2009 @ 10:07 PM

This block should be fun. I think I will like it despite of the hectic lesson plan.

Bye.

The Queen on Biantai google-ing

@ 2:56 PM

Hey my lovely people.
Do you know if you try google-ing "BIANTAI", you will see my clique on the 1st and 2nd under the images section?
Evon's picture will pop up 4th.
If yuou all do a web google, biantai's blog pop up 6th.

cool huh?

The Queen on Shopping Today and Tough Block Tomorrow

Sunday, August 23, 2009 @ 11:45 PM

One, I had a wonderful shopping trip today. One new shirt, One new dress, One new bag. Thumbs up.

Second, I just scan through my lesson plan for the next block and tomorrow’s lesson. 2 words. IT SUCKS!

Third, I got chalet on the 1st, 2nd and 3rd September and guess what? I will have an assignment due on the 4th!
Which means I need to do my work whilst in the chalet and it is stupid.

Fourth, I shall watch CSI later and relax while I can because I foresee a tough block coming.

Fifth, PRISCILIA! Jiayo. Last block and it is over.

Sixth, it still sucks because my friends are having their god damn holiday. NOT ONLY THAT. My hols start way later than them and ends 2 days earlier than them.

Whoever says life is fair should eat the contents of what a toilet bowl should have.

The Queen on falling down and getting up

Saturday, August 22, 2009 @ 8:52 PM

Saw a young boy today who fell while getting off the bus...
He said "oww..", got up, walked on like nothing happened...

sigh...if only we could fall down in life, say "oww" and continue walking our journey of life.

Face it. Its impossible because life has the tendency of leaving scars...

The Queen on fishes that has nothing to do

Friday, August 21, 2009 @ 9:03 PM

End of block. Like finally, it is the end of block.
Everyone did a great job on the video. Coolios people. Have a good rest.

Next block is next Monday. :)

Fishes took my phone to play with the camera today cause I left my phone on my table and went to the other table to do work.
Great.
Here are the photos fishes.

They put one of them as my wallpaper. =.=
Scared tonight got nightmare man. LMAO.

Stayed in school till 6 as usual. I am happy because Biantai video is gonna be done…soon.
So far…I am VERY satisfied with it. Going to edit it further though. Must be perfect right?
Going back tmr. Hope the lab is open though.

Biantai’s chalet on 1st, 2nd and 3rd September.
Looking forward. Sigh. My friends going to hols soon and I’m stuck with one more month of lesson.

Been having insomnia. Specially last night.
Was trying to use my music to get myself into slumber but by God’s blessing, these 2 songs came along
AND
inspiration started gushing in and I could not stop expanding my thoughts. Mentally, my brain started working and all the ideas became so clear. Can’t help but keep improvising on it causing me to lose more sleep.

Seems like workaholic has its pros and cons.
Dreamt of Mensa and bookshop though. o.O

That’s it for now earthlings.
Have a good night. :)

I did something I promised I won’t do.
Regrets filled my heart and I made the promise again.
But how long can this promise last? I chose to give you up
but do you know that I love you more than anything else in the world.

Do you remember this sentence,
please know that I love you more than anything else in the world.?
Face it, I bet you have zero impression at all.

The Queen on After Effects is saved and Mutton’s musical

Thursday, August 20, 2009 @ 8:59 PM

Spent almost straight 12 hours on the PC today. 9am to 6pm. Lunch at 4pm.

Ask me nothing.

Woke up thinking 3 pimples appeared on my face. Gosh.

As promised, my butt was on the classroom’s chair at 9am and starting on the video and only managed to solve my problem 3 hours later.
How clever. *clap clap clap*

Biantai video considered halfway done. Starfish said the first part was touching. I like it myself.
I finally know what that green line is already and I know why I can’t work on my laptop.

Dropped my chicken while flicking it about.
Dropped my spoon because I did not had a firm grip.
Dropped my cup of coke because I was struggling to take it and my laptop in one hand.

Eyes squinting and closing. Jeff said there is more to come.
Computer work he meant. Wonder how long I can take it.

At least I’m taking a liking for video editing, now that it is not creating any problems for me.

Biantai’s chalet is around the corner and I am competing with time.
Hope the chalet really allow me to relax because relaxation is what I need now and sleeping is NOT relaxation.
I need a life.

Mutton’s musical is loved.
What?! They are playing “love story” by Taylor Swift. So old.

Irritated

Wednesday, August 19, 2009 @ 11:19 PM

What the heck.

I just used my bare hands to smack my computer and now my hands hurt like crazy.
I like Adobe After Effects. I hate Adobe After Effects.
I like CS4. I hate CS3 and on second thought, I hate CS4 as well.

Biantai Video. I want to do it. In fact, I have done the beginning and I love it.
However, AE CS4 is giving me as much problems as AE CS3.

Why can I play my video but I can’t play my photos?
Why does it loop when I did not tell it to?
What is that bloody green line on the top of the timeline?

I want to get the video done and time is running out for me.
Just that when I stare at the PC screen feeling so helpless, I can’t help it but blame myself.
It’s just a software god damn it, how hard can it be Priscilia?

*slaps myself*

Holy, I am going crazy. I swear.
I need Allan to tell me how to get the length I want but not affect my audio.
But I don’t like Allan. But I want to do this video.

I promise, I am going to have my butt on the seat in class at 9am tomorrow because somehow,
Priscilia still prefers doing things in school.

With big screen, powerful aircon and a mouse that come all the way in front of you.

Sorry.

Time of My Life – David Cook

@ 9:43 PM

If “The Climb” by Miley Cyrus is No. 1,
and “No Boundaries” by Kris Allen is No. 2,
then “Time of My Life” by David Cook just got to be No. 3!

Have been attracted to this song for quite some time, so decided to blog it!

Time of my life- David Cook
I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it

Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I’m coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin’ my world start to turn

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I’m rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

And I’m out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
Keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
Face to the sun

I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
My life

More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
Time of my life

So self inspirational. So self motivated. Yup, I want to be more than a name or a just another face in the crowd.

I want to be something more than I am.
I want to try new things,
I want to venture my life,
I want to broaden my horizon,
I want to make a my wish come true,
I want to do more than my limit can bring me,
I want to push my boundaries,
I want to be a hero of my life.

stomach-ache and out with clique

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 @ 10:18 PM

Went to meet my girls for breakfast this morning and I had a stomach-ache! If not, I could have finish my hotcakes. =|
Sad Sad…

The pain took over me. Started on doing the video which I challenged myself to complete by Biantai’s chalet, I have a strong feeling it won’t appear the way I want it to be. After effects CS3 sucks so I think I am heading to school to do it tomorrow. Even if I am alone. Yes.

Went back to JYSS. Was feeling way better by then. Miss school. When I stepped in, I miss those days when I was still in secondary level plus, I was sending all the photos to my PC, making me drowned in my memories. Gosh.

My GB girls were having inter-drill com AND they came in CHAMPION! Coolios girls! You did it and gotten what? Ferrero Rocher. Wow. What a one of a kind reward. Better than nothing anyway.

Headed down to Tamp 1 after that and we started discussing on the details of the chalet. *looking forwards*
We have so far planned on the meals. Woah. Everyone was so enthusiastic when coming to what to eat. Haha.

You 2 is got telepathy is it. *winks and grins*

So fierce…so scary…

Hanlin: I WANT TO FLY!!!

keeping texting one know…non-stop…

So happy….

And the Queen eats THE couple…

Haha. Thats about it for photos and post. Blogging bug has gone travelling.
My video sucks, and I mean my personal one. I need ADOBE!!! MR ADOBE…WHERE ARE YOU???!!!!

Priscilia is a happy girl. ^v^

Armageddon, that care and concern

Monday, August 17, 2009 @ 9:49 PM

Just watched this show on Channel 5. This is not one show that I will crave to watch, but is a show I will not miss if it is ever aired. Today, I took all my chances to make sure I watched this show. And I did.

I cried twice. Once was when Bruce Willis died, died a hero, died a way nobody will forget.
Second time was the ending when Grace and AJ got married and the camera shot the part when Grace was looking in the direction of the photos in memorial to those who died.

Great show. I did not even know Owen Wilson then. And the song, so hot among the Biantais.
“Harry, you’re the man” --- Bear

Anyway, I am done with my Final Assignment and I really do not wish to attend classes tomorrow. See no point in doing so. I am done with my FA, I am satisfied with it, must I still go for class? I am still considering if I should go…but Allan’s class is sooooo boring. I don’t need to learn text. I have done it. I go class also waste time only. I can’t help my fishes because they are using Premier and I sucked at it. After Effects I also only know the basics of the basics.

Maybe I should go and see see look look.

sometimes, I think that certain care and concern won’t cease at all. It will always be there even if there is a distance in between. This is not about letting go I guess, because I am confident that it is over. Nevertheless, even as friends there will still be a part of me overlooking him. I always believed that no matter how much harm we have caused towards each other, there will still be that care in us. This is probably what they called, affinity.

Goodnights people.

@ 12:40 AM

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FUCK

Swimming with Hanlin and Leongwei

Sunday, August 16, 2009 @ 10:40 PM

Heyhey!!!
Went swimming with Hanlin and Leong Wei today. Was LMAO when I saw Hanlin in trunks. Oops.

They CMI la. Hanlin can hardly swim, swim one lap jiu tired liao. Only donkey still consider good. I was laughing really.
Still, today is not a good day to go swimming, there were the swimming exams going on and there were many students as well. I enjoyed swimming with them though, very fun. Can play games.

Had lunch with them from 12 to nearly 4, like OMG! What kind of lunch we eating la. Eat so long. My mum and Hanlin got endless topic to talk about, I pity David aka Leong Wei.

We plan to have Biantai Chalet again! This time is I organized de. At Aranda CC since we had the NTUC member, can get it cheaper. Besides, the initial biantai chalet was supposedly wanting to be held there, heard it is damn big. Excited. I really hope my friends can bond together just as well as we did the first time. I really miss that feeling, like as though we really were a family and spend the whole day together. Too bad, I got school from 3 to 6 so I have leave from time to time, but its ok, I just want my friends to be happy, that’s all that matters right?

Hao la. I gtg le. Have not eat dinner. Must go buy. Goodnights peeps!!!
The world loves you! :DDD

I heard a very sad thing today. Despite the fact that he and I have our differences, but I still felt sad and down when I heard it. I have not experience it myself and that is the only thing I have not experience before even though I have also been through hurricanes and waves. I felt upset not only because of the incident but also because I could find no words and did not know how to comfort him. Still, I have faith and believe in him that he will be fine. I will be praying for him as well. I have sent my regards over and I could tell he is going to be ok. :)

Saturday, August 15, 2009 @ 10:30 PM

I sometimes admire myself for being able to pretend like nothing happened the day before when in actual fact many things happened.
I sometimes admire myself for being able to tell people I’m fine when I am actually filled inside, when I am actually wishing to die inside.
I sometimes admire myself for being able to be so heartless on the surface but in reality, my heart is breaking into pieces.
I sometimes admire myself for being able to be so strong to show people I am not afraid when I am really shaking inside.

Can you see how weak I actually am? The side which I never would want people to see at all.
In the end, I am just but a coward when I thought I was the strongest.

I am afraid I will lose my smile next week. I really am.

Rebus presentation

Friday, August 14, 2009 @ 9:38 PM

Not me, it is my secondary school’s clique. Respectively, Evon, Sharon and Vanessa. They have put in so much effort and lost so much sleep just for today and it is finally over for all of them. I went to KPO and support them. Went there first thing and miss my lunch. :( Had a set sandwich and small bites, good enough to fill my small stomach. Haha.

Sorry ah. This is a so failed photo. Should not zoom in at all.
Nevertheless, you got my point.

Have more confidence my girls. Confidence is the key to everything. :)

It felt cool seeing them in formal.
Sharon looked like some businesswoman, but she should stand straighter and it would be perfect. Must have correct posture ah! :)

Seems like yesterday when Vanessa was telling me about this particular project and it seems not longer ago when I went show-flat viewing with them, not forgetting, it was only 2 or 3 weeks ago when I lent them my first laptop for ppt use. It’s finally over for them. :DDD

Hais. I have to re-post the weisian’s birthday that post, but then again, I am too lazy to do it again. So maybe, I will do away with it.
Break till Monday. Walao, Sharon they all exam break le and I’m still stuck in school with my stupid assignment. DX

Never mind! Jiayo! OH…changing blog song again. I think this song can relate…

我的天是灰色我的心是蓝色
触摸着你的心竟是透明的
你的悠然自得我却束手无策
我的心痛即是你的快乐
其实我不想对你恋恋不舍
但什么让我辗转反侧
不觉我说着说着天就亮了
我的唇角尝到一种苦涩
*我是真的为你哭了
你是真的随他走了
就在这一刻全世界
伤心角色又多了我一个
我是真的为你爱了
你是真的跟他走了
能给的我全都给了我都舍得
除了让你知道我心如刀割*

What is install for me one week later?

这就是爱吗？

Thursday, August 13, 2009 @ 11:00 PM

你确定这就是爱吗真的爱我吗
手牵著手漫步斜阳就当作浪漫
两个人眺望远方以为爱的晴朗
当我回头望却已泪湿了眼眶

当夕阳变成星光当爱情换了方向
你一如过往对爱太紧张
但未来又会怎样
未知的明天总让我旁徨
谁给我力量

我不怕你爱不爱我
只害怕你以为爱我
抓紧我不算拥有你总学不会放手
我不怕你不懂爱我
只怕你把习惯当作爱
你猜不透我要什麼

两个人眺望远方以为爱的晴朗
当我回头望却已泪湿了眼眶
当夕阳变成星光当爱情换了方向
你一如过往对爱太紧张
但未来又会怎样
未知的明天总让我旁徨
谁给我力量

我不怕你爱不爱我
只害怕你以为爱我
抓紧我不算拥有你总学不会放手
我不怕你不懂爱我
只怕你把习惯当作爱
你猜不透我要什麼

我不怕你爱不爱我
只害怕你以为爱我
抓紧我不算拥有你总学不会放手
我不怕你不懂爱我
只怕你把习惯当作爱
你猜不透我要什麼
喔你猜不透我要什麼

@ 2:01 PM

Haha. I know it is abit late but never mind. I still write it anyway. My COMDI and in case you can't remember, COMDI was taught by Bina the peanut. Yup, my individual report got an "A". I am a happy girl. I at first really though I must re-take and I used to strongly believe that Bina did not like me. To all my friends who did not do so well, no frets ok? Still got group report to go!!! Haha. We won't re-take de!!! Jiayo Jiayo!

And hor, I have gotten my Final Assignment for Digital Fundamental. Way easier than I expect, I am either doing a 19secs video or a 37sec video, depending on which audio I decided, on the theme, "Brilliant Ocean". Haha. Vanessa was teasing me that all my FA has got something to do with the beach. Photography also the same thing. See. I told you I am a water baby. Should be fine. I have already decided on my first clip and my last clip and in between would be really cool sea creatures like sharks, whale and jellyfishes. Maybe a coral or 2 as well.

I was also challenged to pink scenery but I think if you see a video filled with pink colour, it would be rather boring. Nevertheless, water is my element and Brilliant ocean it shall be. Wish me luck people. Due next friday. Gonna get busy soon.

Next block should be fun too. Typhography. Got to face the computer again. Better do a check on my degress during the holiday. Dun wanna see my perfect eyesight going haywire. :)

Blogs can be scary sometimes. They let you see the true colours of human nature, they let you read truths you rather not know for the rest of your life. They can break down friendship, love and family. They let you have the phobia of the internet and technology. They let you lose trust and faith. They let cry and they let you hate. They have the ability to destroy and they have the ability to kill.

I feel pretty dead now…

Wednesday, August 12, 2009 @ 4:17 PM

Basically in class now, not having class, after class. My groupmates is like trying to chiong the assignment which is due tomorrow but I am just to lazy to leave my butt off the ground to go and look at what they are doing. Sorry White Castle!!!

I want to post the other photos but for now, I am still too lazy to do anything. Think I will find my girls and sleep soon. I am dead beat tired, I can just lie on the floor and go into a slumber. x_x

Good news, the Bossini people have called me, as I have prayed for.
Bad news, I’m still not sure if I have got it, Chris said he will call me when he arranged the timing for me, and hopefully the place.
My current posting is in bugis.

There was the WingTai interview which I was really tempted to try as well. They covered more places as well. Oh well.

Good nights everyone.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009 @ 5:05 PM

Omg!!! I can post and add pics!!! Found another reason to love my phone. Kisskiss kiss

8:22pm

Sunday, August 9, 2009 @ 8:22 PM

WE THE CITIZEN OF SINGAPORE,
PLEDGE OURSELVES AS ONE UNTIED PEOPLE
REGARDLESS OF RACE, LANGUAGE OR RELIGION
TO BUILD A DEMOCRATIC SOCIETY
BASED ON JUSTICE AND EQUALITY
SO AS TO ACHIEVE HAPPINES, PROSPERITY AND PROGRESS FOR OUR NATION!!!

I love my hair~~!!

Saturday, August 8, 2009 @ 10:42 PM

I must be nuts, I took a total of 70 photos of myself, including those blurred ones just because I want to capture my hair.
Don’t anyhow think, I did not do anything weird to my hair.

I did not perm it
I did not cut short
I did not rebond it again.

I just love my present hair now.

Went to trim my hair today, to remove all the dry and dead hair. The boss also thinned my hair as well.
Remember that time I said I was considering to curl the ends of my hair but did not do it in the end? Reason being, I just adore my straight hair and will do no creepy things to it in the near future. Maybe, curling will come later next year. ^^

So be prepared to see my face for this entire blog post and you may leave now if you want.

Hello. :)

Went to visit my grandparents after doing my hair. Had to hand them the anti-itch medicine so mummy and I trained all the way done and back again.
Caught a fantastic show, G.I.JOE. As I said, it was fantastic. Saw that Korean actor who was really smart in the show, wearing all white. I think guys wearing white these days attracts me. :D Even Hyun-Joong wears white all the time. Talking about handsome guys, I saw this really nice-looking Ang Moh today at Tiong Bahru. HE SMILED AT ME!!! LIKE OMG!!! SO OF COURSE I SMILE BACK. The end.

I was jumping in excitement. Mummy finds him handsome too. Means he is really handsome. :)

As I was saying, the show is really cool with all the effects and how the show was directed and shot. Ever since I learnt photography and filming, I get awed easily at good works and I will go “woah~”

This is the first time I feel so attracted to my hair. I think it is because of the way they blew it, making it straighter than it normally was. Love love.

I had a hard time taking this pose. Sitting on an imaginary chair. :)

look at my hair!!! Love it.

My samsung camera hao liao. I am happier.

This shirt is exceptionally long which is why I only wear it at home now.

Can you see the difference between a 3.2 megapixels camera and a 10.1 megapixels camera?
Cameras are the babe. I should stop buying clothes and buy a canon compact digital camera but it seems to far…

Before I end this post, gotta show you people something.

How retarded can he get, I have been so irritated but humoured by him.

K la. Guess you guys must be sick of my face. Nothing to blog le.
See ya. I hope I will be really happy on Monday. :|