My BBF. :D

Come come, I introduce I introduce. This one on top is my BBF.
BBF = Boy Best Friend. Haha. Yup. This is my guy best friend now. Fernando Charles Lee.
Aren’t I blessed?
I have : RBF = Shermeen
Darling = Sharon
Laopo = Vanessa and Jie Ni
Dear = Evon
BBF = Fernando
Cookie Monster = Lester
My venting machine = HanJun
Mr. Turtle = Hanlin
Small Turtle cum one day bf = Ah pong
[and the list goes on:)]

I can’t really remember how Fernando and I become BBF. Vanessa misread it as Best Boy friend. Pui Pui. Cannot anyhow say, it’s Boy Best Friend. I think we are the Siao Best Friends la. We have plans to meet at 8.30 tomorrow and eat cup noodles for breakfast and my RIBENA!!! Then lunch we eat french fries with Nacho. Woah. What a plan. :D
*looks forward*
Plus, we have endless topic and we have endless laughters, it’s nice hanging out with him. And he call me an idiot. >.<
No lor. I am just a kid at heart when come to playing games. Boo!!! Bleh. ;p

What to wear tmr? What to wear? Haha.

:D

You can like both but you can only choose one to love – fighting spiders

Salute.

Face it man, Pris.
YOU HAVE JUST GOTTEN THE COOLEST LECTURER ANY DESIGN STUDENT CAN EVER GET. [so far]

I just went to google my lecturer’s name. Mathias Heng. His name appeared 6times on the 1st google page, all of which talking about his job as a photojournalist and Chee Kiong thinks he is famous? Mathias is so much cooler. He is a total glory in Singapore man. His name fills the internet and he is no small figure. He is paid a minimum of 60k for a 10 assignment which means his salary as a photojournalist is up to an average of 6k a day!!! Hell. What kind of job is this?

Of course, his job can cost him his life. He was showing us his assignment production on the Iraq war. He is a survivor man, he stayed there for 3months, shooting the war and was almost killed, died whilst getting his job down. One photo that left a total deep impression was the one with his car shot. The glass was smashed and he still got the mood to take the photo. I salute him man. I would have been so freaked out if I was in that situation and he told us said that he did not regret taking up this job.

“I fear no fear, and that is my greatest fear”
- Mathias Heng

Who can ask more of a lecturer like him?

P/s: That picture was not take by him.

:D

Photos keep the moment and the emotion still in a single second and in a sound of a click

I think I am going to enjoy this block's module.

Basically, this block's module is photography and applied graphic design. Both of which had lecturers that I like. Jeffery and Mathias. Not that I know Mat well enough to like him, but he left a good impression. He is in charge of photography lesson. I can't wait man, like totally.
Haha. Have to go loan camera later.

I am in class now by the way, in the com lab. Macs everywhere. EVERYWHERE!!! Burn this place if you hate design school. All the macs, all the money. Holy.
PLEASE DON'T DO IT! I STILL WANT MY SCHOOL.

Alrights. I want to be guai kia and listen to Mat. Ciao people.
:D

Confidence is not about shouting loudly and promptly, but it's feeling that you no need to shout at all

 
My shadow. :D

Went to Bugis today for prayers’ purpose and also to eat the durian mango desert. Woah, come to think of it, my mouth still drools of saliva. Ummm… Of course after that got go shopping la. ^^ Haha.

Wanted to buy my long awaited boots but my size, last piece and it was display piece. :(
Freaking cheap leh, after discount only $25, and it looks the same as the Jimmy Choo’s just that the material is different. Those fake leather but still, the boots damn freaking nice. I really wanted it alot. I walked into the shop at least 3 times but in the end I decided to give it up. There will be better and nicer ones…I hope. :)
One good thing though, I bought a set of shirt with the vest. It’s not those kind of normal vest, its more of the thin fabric kind, but the design rather different. That’s why I like. $29.90. Hais. I saw this blazer, also damn nice. And when I say nice, it’s really nice, fits me totally. BUT. $35. Expensive. Like Shermeen, I want to get myself a blazer. A nice and cheap one. My last blazer too small le, and I think I lost it among my clothes. Oops. :p

After that went to Chai Chee for dinner with my uncle. Sad, I can’t go to my gugu house for dinner, too far le la, Woodlands. I miss my relatives though. Nevermind, I meeting my beloved cousins on the 8thjuly. Going Far East I heard. I can’t wait to see them. I got stories to tell them as well. Juicy stories I reckon the 2Ts will like. Muahaha.

Alrights. Had a long chat with Shermeen, Sharon and Hanlin just now. Tired le.
Hanlin, I promise I will be the cheerful me as soon as possible.

:D

Only a change in perspective brings about a change in life

YOU HAVE MADE WHAT I THOUGHT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DREAM INTO A DISGUSTINGLY AWFUL NIGHTMARE

NOW I DON’T FEEL GUILTY FOR SAYING FUCK YOU BECAUSE INDEED YOU ARE ONE BIG DISGUSTING PIECE OF SHIT THAT OUGHT TO BURN IN HELL.

EVEN HELL IS TOO NICE FOR YOU.

YOU, EVEN WITH YOUR NON-EXISTENCE, YOU STILL HAVE THE ABILITY TO HURT ME AND MAKE ME TEAR.

YOU ARE ONE PIECE OF JERK THAT DESERVES NO LOVE FROM ANYONE AT ALL. FUCK YOU.

From the picture, guess you will know what I did the whole day…
SLEEPING!
Basically, I slept very very late yesterday although in design terms, it was early. I slept at 4am.
Woke up at 1pm today, had my lunch, watch some tv and I went to nap again. Until now.
I just had my bath and then I had my PC on.

Yeah, I know. What a pig. Sleep till now. Well, I have always believed in retail therapy and slumber therapy. Since I can do no retail therapy, just make do with slumber therapy. HAHA. Crap.
Let’s just say, school is starting and when I say school is starting, I mean lesser sleep so sleep while I still can.
Counting down, 1 more day till my holidays are over. ^^

OK. I need my dinner. Damn HUNGRY!!!

:D

Love become a complex issue when you realized the person you need and the person you want are different. 
                                 -Priscilia

 
HJ and I.

Met up with Sharon and Van at TP for lunch.
Hanlin was also there.
They cute la, play some facebook game. ^^
Vanessa lure me to eat cup noodles for lunch. SO EVIL!!!
Still, it was cheap lunch.

Met HJ after that. Was late.[sorry!!]
HL they all came along cause they also want go there look at handphone.
Haha. Shermeen came along. Saw my Gege after that.
He was at Tamp 1 searching for formal clothes.

Yup. My gege and I. Jia Cheng. <33s

Split up with the co. and train-ed down to airport.
So bo liao. We took sky-train here and there.
Stop at T3 viewing mall to sit down and chit chat.
So long never meet, got lots of things to talk about. Heehee.
I was excited because it was raining!!! Like finally.

Can see? Maybe not… =_= |||

Went for dinner around 6 plus.
I was freaking hungry…
SWENSENS!!! WHEE!!!
I had my chicken baked rice…been craving for it.
HJ had his breaded chicken and we shared a pizza.
Ice cream, naturally, for desert.
Guess how much we ate?

Can see?

I know. We must be nuts.

HJ treated me to dinner, so nice of him right? Thanks btw. Hanlin!!! I today very good girl leh, I today finish all my food with NO leftovers leh. Haha. I am just waiting for your Phin’s now. Must find one day go eat ah. Dun think you can lai diao. Haha.
We wanted to go T2 viewing mall but only to find it close. And that HJ keep playing with my hair, keep messing it up for me. My hair got so nice to touch meh? Huh? Hmm? :p
No choice, went back to the basement and tried taking pictures. Took quite a few actually but that HJ don’t allow me put here cause he thinks it’s too ugly
=_=

Today is “that” day.
Private joke. Haha.

Final pic…
Happy ending to my last weekday of my 2 weeks holiday. Can’t wait for school to start!!
Swimming tmr!! YAY!

In the rhythm of Life, we sometime find ourselves out of tune, But as long as there are friends to provide the melody, The music plays on.

 

What made my day today?
What made me smile today?

First person I saw today was Ronnie, my neighbour.
We had a small conversation, a conversation that showed interest in each other’s day.
No, I don’t like him, I like this kind of small chat.
It was sweet. :)

The person who woke me up today was Sharon.
Sharon’s SMS woke me up today.
That made me smile. :)

The Indian man at the mama shop made me laugh.
He did not say a joke.
It was part of a natural conversation. :)

The fact that I may be visiting my relatives later.
and how much I know I love them.
This idea made me smile. :)

Those smiles were real smiles
I have not had a real smile for so long, so long.
I know I got it back during Biantai’s Anniversary.
I’m happy. Really happy. 

Yeah, I may have cried a lot for the past one month.
For various reasons.
But I know,
after every cry, there will be a smile, just like after every storm, there will be the sun.
I know, I have pass the storm and see the sun
Just like I knew I was blind, but now I can see the light.
Oops. The last sentence was generic. :p

:D

A smile is a curve that set things straight. Smile. :)

 
Am I suppose to be happy or what?
My friends request had been increasing each time I go
And this is by far my highest…
K la. I know I’m not suppose to be proud
Muttons’ page are so full, they need a group.
*jealous*

Didn’t do much today
Suppose to have a farewell BBQ but it was cancelled due to stupid reasons.
Nevertheless, went back to school for lunch with clique.
Hanlin’s treat today.
Am I blessed or what?
Last night dinner, Ah Pong treat
Today’s lunch, Hanlin treat
Today’s Dinner, Mummy cook
Whee~

Me and Co. went to roam around the area.
Halfway wanted to eat ice-cream
Went to slack at void deck till Hanlin ended school.
Girls went home, Guys basketball.
Wow. What a day.

I am suppose to wait till Evon come along,
judging the time, think she not coming

I need a tronkey to get me to sleep
and Olivia Ong’s soothing voice. :)
I’m in love with her now…

My favourites:
Sometimes when we touch
Love Fool
The Rose
Close to you
Fly me to the moon
All out of love
First of may

Alright. I need my Tronkey now.
Loves people.

:D

Love is like playing the piano, first you learn the rules and then you forget them and play it from the heart

Yeah, I understand if you can’t see what it is although I have already redden the thing, it is still not so obvious. Bleh. :P
as a nice blogger and for your sake, uh hmm…

Yup, I went to the Da Vinci Exhibition today!!!
Like finally!!!
Paid like 16 bucks for the entry, plus admission to Science Centre.
It was simply a day worth anticipating… :)

Went with cookie monster, Lester[thx for the company]
BUT, I was SO SAD!
Because no photography allowed, so I was not able to take the pictures. SHIT!
But we did a little of camwhoring…

Pui, I know I zi lian, but it’s in my blood.
I am vain little Queen. Make do with it. ;p


My most satisfied photo with Lester
Our eyes big big one. Me like.

YES! ANOTHER ONE!! :D

Went back around 4 because I got clique dinner.
Lester was knocked out by that time anyway.

Hurt my left leg on the way back and it still freaking hurt.
Shall complain about it later.
Met up with clique for dinner at 844, was limping.
Wanted to give shermeen a surprise with my appearance…but apparently…

Dinner was amazing, everybody had fried rice, and out of us, 3 had hor fun.
One for each person, I first time like that eat sia.
Went to 840 playground to chit chat and home we went.

oh ya. MY LEG!
Man, MY LEG!!! I seriously don’t know what I doing, where was I looking
I just tripped and my leg did not hurt at first.
I still told Lester I’m fine, I could still walk properly.
Apparently, it just got worst worst and I ended limping all the way to 844.
Vanessa and Sharon say, see me like that oso xin ku for me.
Haha.

The only 2 I took with. Pathetic?

Anyway,

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY MY BIANTAI!!!
YOU GUYS ARE LOVED BY ME!!! MUACKS!!!

<33s

love is like violin, the music may stop now, but the strings remain forever.

Verse of the day.

Now instead, you ought to forgive and comfort him,
so that he will not be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow.
                                        - 2 Corinthians 2:7

This picture is like how I feel now I guess.
Darkness and now I see light.
What is these light? My friends and my mum.
They brought me out of everything that happened these days
and I am thankful towards them, for always staying at my side and letting me know I am not alone.
I think if not for them, I will still be lying in a pool of anger and hatred.

Today, damn sian.
I think it is my most sian day among my holidays.
Everyone start school le except design school, and I have not gone out with IMDfreaks.
Man, I miss them much. Feel so weird not seeing them.

Went to find my dear friends at school.
I FINALLY SAW AH PONG!!!! MY ONE DAY BF!!!
Super happy. So happy that I hugged him.
Yeah, he made my day. Not that my friends did not.
But still…

Going out with cookie monster tmr.
Finally get to go to the Da Vinci exhibition.
Last time wanted to go with him, but before we even went, we…
Never mind.
I’M HUNGRY. Gonna grab a tronkey.

Bye peeps.
:D

True independence and freedom can only exist in doing what’s right

So yeah, went to Church with Vanessa today.
Was, erm, were we late? I only knew Gordon was there earlier when it should have been me.
I seriously missed ALL OF THEM so much and I never expect some of them to remember me.
“Are you going Kaleo?” Haha. I must have heard that at least 7 times.
I went by the way. :)

Anyway, I want to share a verse from the bible today.

When a man’s ways are pleasing to the Lord,
he makes even his enemies live at peace with him
- Proverbs 16:7

This was the first verse I flipped and read when I entered the Church and prepared for service.
I was so amazed, I turn to Vanessa and showed her.
She knew immediately what I meant.

I was thinking to myself, is this hint a little too obvious?
Please the Lord and make peace with enemies. –_-
Not like they are enemies, but definitely not friends. Whatever.
I shall do as the Lord please because I want to please Him.

Went to Church for few reasons,
one of the obvious was that I have not been there for quite some time, Jeremy actually counted how long I wasn’t there. Haha.
Another one was because I have sinned too much.
No, Church is not a “washing machine”, I just feel that I need to feel His presence after for so long. I need to make peace with myself and of course, with God.
And each time I think of Him, I am reminded of how He died on the cross for me, the unworthy me and I smile at the thought of how much sacrifice He gave to save me. :)
~Motivated by humility and rewarded by God

Luncheon with Vanessa Laopo after that.
Dating with her for awhile and home I went.
Slept halfway while watching Boys over flowers. Too tired.It’s beeeeeen long since I woke up at 7plus in the morning.
Enjoyed my day thoroughly…

So sad, Gfriends and Hanling starting school tmr…
Talking about school,

Good luck guys.
And oh, to my dear Evon, Sharon and Vanessa, congratulations in getting into FDM club oh.
Must jiayo jiayo. And I’m sincere hor. Haha.

Bye ^3^

When reputation becomes more important than righteousness, it becomes hypocrisy.

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you"re
feeling blue
If you"re away from love and
you"re alone
If you call your friends and
nobody"s home
You can run away but you
can"t hide
Through a storm and through
a lonely night
Then I show you there"s
a destiny
The best things in life
They"re free
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
who cares for you
If you"re feeling sad
your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what
real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let
me know
There"s a place in heaven
where we"ll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make
your day
When the nights are getting cold
and blue
When the days are getting hard
for you
I will always stay here by
your side
I promise you I"ll never hide
Yes I show you
what real love can do
What real love can do
What love can do

Went swimming today, 10 laps continuous
Damn happy la, my stamina is back…
Heard this song after my swim…
Thought it was damn nice…

 No one cares how much you know till they know how much you care. 

YEAH! Went to visit this beloved science tuition teacher of mine, the teacher who made me pass my science
Though he and I were not very satisfied with it :[
His class at that time was woah…
Sec 1 who looked like sec 2.
Hope he is doing fine…

Anyway, I am going to make a new photo album, the portable one.
I bought a new book because the old one is filled. I am going to re-do the old one because I think it will tear off soon enough.
Look forward my friends although I have a strong feeling you guys will prefer the old one. Haha. :)

Well then, good nights people. It’s late. Going to 11. Haha.

Yeah, face it, I’m not the best girl around
There are better people out there
Heck, do you think I care? I just play my part and live my life the way I want it to be.
Yup, I am a happy, confident and carefree little Queen. Bleh.

Let bygones be bygones and let the new take the old. That does not applies to friends hor.
Ever since yesterday when I have come to terms with my feelings and open up to all my friends, I have put down everything
So long as nobody tries anything funny, I will be fine.
I no longer hate, neither do I dislike, I just do not want to give myself another chance to be hurt
And I know I have some friends who do not want me to be too.

From now on, I live for these people, these people who truly love me
And I promise you all, I won’t let myself be dominated by Lucifer and I won’t let myself fall for such reasons anymore.
I realized how unreal I was, how childish I was
So, let’s put a stop to everything. Stop. Period.
Haha.

Going my Grandmother’s house later.
Can’t wait, it has been ages since I last went there
Ever since THAT thing happen, I have not gone there.
No la, just kidding, more like ever since block 1.2 started, I have not gone there to visit.

Alrights, I need go for my bath bath, I still feel like there is sea water in my hair.
Yucks. Should I curl my hair???
Byebye. :D

画上的伤口，就算完全愈合，还是会有疤痕。

Tired…Pain…Sian…
Home from a fun-filled day, though fun but tiring.
Tried my best to combine all the pictures together but apparently, we took a total of 174 photos from my camera today…
I’m sure you all do not want to see that many ba…
So I did us a favour by combining…


As we buy ticket and prepare for admission, bet you can tell how excited Shermeen was…
When we went in, headed down to Palawan Beach but we didn’t like it there, too much activities going on so bus-ed down to siloso beach
Also got many people…+v+

Don’t care, just stayed there and the day’s activities started.

What is beach hangout without VOLLEYBALL???
Volleyball was first but the sand was too too too hot. Play in slippers also very xin ku. Gave up soon after.
My RBF wanted to suntan. Evon and I, together with the 2 guys went to the sea to PLAY!!!

Sadly, that was the only picture with the 4 of us in the sea. Vanessa, Sharon and Shermeen can’t swim. They also never bring extra clothes. TOO BAD. :p
The sea was really salty. Disgusting. But the water was really nice. I love it when I was in there. :}

GIRLS HANGOUT!!!!
 
One page dedicated to my dearest laopo, Vanessa…Love her…

One page dedicated to Evon and Sharon…
 
These were take on the way to Sentosa…



Can you tell how much I love my laopo?



 

So, as you can see, Hanlin, Leongwei, Weisian, Vanessa, Evon, Sharon, Shermeen and I were the ones who went out together today.
I really had lots of fun. I finally went to Sentosa and oh my, how much it changed. Shows how noob I can be.
Went to Vivo for dinner after that. The dinner was fantastic as well.
Think I too happy today le, so whatever I did also very happy. Love my girlfriends and boy[space]friends.

Also, I chose today to tell them how I feel now, take this chance to explain to them how my emotions had been these days and how guilty and apologetic I am to them and how prepared I am. Neh, they do not have to agree with me or support me. I just want to tell them how I exactly am and clear up any queries they have on me but have not been daring to ask me.

In the end, what have I gotten at the end of the day?
Well, besides the fact of knowing how much my friends love me and how much I love them,
besides the fact that I have apologise,
besides the fact that I had lots of fun,
I have also gotten……
 

A VERY GOOD SUNTAN!!!

Have a nice day people.
Oh, I miss my Evan baby… Haha. ^^ <33s

You can’t lecture about people on respect because by doing so, you are also not respecting me
back to your sentence, you stop receiving respect you stop giving, this sentence, return you!

Hong Kong got one saying,
人在做，天在看

You don’t know me at all, so shut up and get on with life…

[this post was longer, much longer, this is the summarize version]

Bye.

As expected, I was unable to get into slumber the night before because of the damn show, the face of that old woman just kept popping out when I had my eyes shut…

“Soon it will be you who come begging to me…”
I DUN LIKE!!! But the whole scene kept appearing, TMD…

Anyway, went shopping with RBF today at Bugis first but don’t know why, most of the shops with good bargains were close, we were there at 12plus leh. All the lazy workers. :p
Train-ed down to Orchard and first place we headed to was Wisma because RBF wanted to go Forever 21 which I am so not interested in, still young. Haha.
Went to Far East after that and that’s when the shopping began. Mummy came to join us after that and ta-dah, I can buy stuff officially. One bag for school, one jumper, one dress, one key chain, two belts, four bra straps, and what else… Can’t remember actually.
The most upset thing is that I shop and shop and shop, I still can’t find the boots I want…

AND, talking about BOOTS. Went to Taka after Far East shopping. Went into Jimmy Choo for the first time and Jimmy Choo sells shoes wat. I anyhow just pick up one pair of boots right, guess how much it cost????
A dummit $947.50 and its AFTER 50% discount!!! 
When I picked the boots I liked, it costs…
$1362.50!!![after 50% off hor]

Oh my tian. Can faint or not? One pair of boots 50bucks I already think is expensive and out comes a pair that is 4figure. OMG!!!
Damn expensive la. Who is the right frame of mind would buy a pair of boots that is 4 figures? Siao or not?

Like Shermeen and I said,
Walk into Burberry and asked the price, say it’s too cheap for you to buy and walk off
Enter LV and ask for a model that has not been imported, sales associate will say it’s not available and you walk off..
At least got the feel of tai-tai you know…but abit dumb la…Haha.

Ate dinner at Central Cafe, not bad, quite nice and home we went.
Reminder, need to buy suntan lotion tomorrow.
Can’t wait to go Sentosa with the gang. :D

don’t say I’m crazily in love because love is crazy to start with…

HAPPY ANNIVERSAY MY DEAR EVON!!!
We together for so long le, must chang chang jiu jiu ok. Must go beyond 10 years also oh.
I hearts you much much…

Treated Evon Jack’s Place today for 2 reasons,
one, must keep my promise
two, celebrate our 5th anniversary as Dears. Hahas.
She gave her first time to me leh, first time eating at Jack’s Place.
And in return, I gave her my first time…
 
MY FIRST HORROR MOVIE!!!

This show is incredibly disgusting, the sound effect is unexpected, the story is so cool, people who likes horror and thriller just can’t afford to miss this damn show. It is not like those typical ghost stories, there is a storyline behind this movie and just the first 15mins of the show can make you decide if you should stay and watch, or leave, in which case Evon, Weiling and I took the first choice.

I won’t say it’s scary, it’s more of a shocking and the disgusting kind of movie, I don’t know how to put it in words but I will recommend this show.
I think the female lead is rather poor thing, got curse for a very insignificant reason.
And YES, Van, you are right, I am never ever going to watch a movie where I hide under behind my knees and my fingers pressed against my ears.
[This show is Evon treat one. Thanks Dear <33s]

After that Evon, Sharon, Vanessa, Weiling, Shermeen and Hanlin went to the 4E4 BBQ, I was invited but not allowed to go though since this whole week everyday going out already. ^_<
Think they are still there as I am blogging.

Yup, this wraps up my day and I’m going SHOPPING at Bugis and Far East tmr. Yes my cousins, I’m going back for another round of nightmare.
Bless that I won’t get real nightmare today, not after watching the show.

:D

close my eyes, sigh and say, let’s move on…

I’m doing something stupid now. I am sending like 114 songs to my handphone because my MP3 has decided to die on me which is rather frustrating I should say. I need my MP3 alive. Wanted to use my first MP3 player but I somehow dun like it very much so I have no choice but to use my handphone again. –_-

Anyways, today is Monday so I went shopping with my cousin. Had lots of fun with them. Missed them alot I should say, and I have finally uncovered the mystery of ‘ME[:’. Haha. Bought lots of stuff also. Basically, today my motive of going there was to waste money la. I bought like 2 tops, one bag, 2 presents, 3 earrings and 2 coin pouches[for my mum], not forgetting lunch, french fries and sausage money. Not only that, I was still tempted to shop for more stuff, I was so way over budget. My best buy would be either my vest or my bag. Both of which are 10bucks. In fact, everything I bought today only cost 10bucks. So it’s like spending 10bucks all the way. My wallet feel so flat now.

I WANT TO GO BACK!!!

Meeting Evon dear for lunch tomorrow, have to fulfil my promise of the Jack’s place treat. God, I can see my money flying away before I spend it. I’m going to be so broke at the end of the week, I swear.

$_$ Gotta go le. bye bye.

I hate promises because out of 10, 8 will be empty and the other 2 is insignificant…

Basically, this is a song I won’t hear all the time and yet, it is also one of the most meaningful song I have ever heard in my entire life and yes, this song makes me reflect each time I hear it.

May I present, ‘Reflection’ by Christina Aguilera 

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else?
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think?
How we feel?

Must there be a secret me?
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

As I was saying, this song probably has the magic to wake many people up and start to reflect on themselves and just like me, they will stare in the mirror and wonder what have become of myself… yet, no hopes too high because in this world, I know there are also certain people who do no such thing at all. But yet, not all hopes are lost as there is always sunlight after the night, a silver lining in every cloud and a rainbow after each storm.

As I was watching Memoirs in the Geisha, this song came to my mind, I have no idea why, maybe it is the words behind Michelle Yeoh that made me felt how one person have two personalities but combined to make a single person who can make her dreams come true. This song reminds me of being my real self when I am alone, just quiet down myself for one second and think back about my entire life and only allow myself to smile for letting these things happen and allowing me to grow. Like I mentioned in my last post, it’s not us changing, but it’s us growing in a way that maybe we can’t accept and for that, let’s not forget the virtues we had learnt in life and one of the most important is probably to forgive.

How long is the question and for me now, I don’t know how long it will take but I know not as long as my life will last, give me some time to forgive and put down the grudge but not to forget for it will always be remembered, no matter how many years it takes. After all, hatred is tiring. Forgive but not to reconcile, forgive but not to re-start, it’s forgive to give each other a chance to know each other once more and maybe till then, it will know what we should do. But for now, it’s not the right time.

Nope, Priscilia is not having another emo period, Priscilia probably just saw another thing in life which could make her grow over the night for I have seen clearly what light is there for me.   

We can also make a choice to love, even to those who are difficult to love

Let me see, yesterday…
Yes, went to T1 with Lester, been so long since I last saw him, my cute cookie monster, missed him so much. Haha.
He spent so much money on shopping la, $100 over leh. I first time go out with guy but in the end the guy spent more than I did,
In fact, I didn’t even buy anything la, except for my ‘dinner’

After that, went back school for parents’ night, a very enjoyable process, not like typical sec school’s meet the parent session
Moses came in wheelchair though, wonder what happened.
But still. He was as hilarious as ever and he practically hit the bull’s eye of what parents think. Goodness.

 

Today, I had lunch with my wives, Jieni and Vanessa.
Been so long since we last bond bond and Jieni is as cute as ever. ^^ My cute laopo.

We went to the ‘romantic’ Mac for lunch although I don’t find it romantic at all…HAHA.
Talked and laughed, been so long since I did that with them.
Babes, find one day we like that again ok…haha.

Shopping with mummy at Parkway but I did not buy anything, first time leh. Round of applause…
Came home after an early dinner and mummy is now in the bedroom because she wants to sleep already…[so early la] o_o

 

I can’t wait for next week to come like seriously, really. My next week is so packed that I really can’t wait for it to come.
Monday       - Shopping and movie with cousins, God, I miss them so much
Tuesday      - Lunch with Evon at Jacks’ Place and then movie catching with her and Weiling
Wednesday – Shopping with Shermeen at Far East, together with Mummy then mummy treating dinner…^^
Thursday     - Ladies hang out at Sentosa, about time for bond bond with NO guys…not unless Sharon is coming then maybe can bring HL along
Friday          - Meeting Cookie Monster who is going to accompany to Science Centre for the Da Vinci Exhibition =D
Saturday      - Going swimming with Mummy
Sunday        - Going church, like finally… ^v^

Haha. So packed right???
Ya, bloody excited for the week to come. Then next week shall be reserved for HanJun, Gordon and let me think who else…of course, MY CLASSMATES!!!
Missing them already…^L^
Heck care, and then, I will be going for farewell party at Miss Tay’s place and must go find Vanessa before that…
And this time, I am going to be the one to go back TP and ‘visit’ my friends. Muahaha.

 

Yup Yup. Happy and enjoying…I am going to spent my holidays like never before and I’m going to enjoy it while I can…
Ta-Ta people…
Enjoy life…

:3

It’s not just you changing, it is us growing, in a different way we can’t accept…

From now on,

IF THERE IS HIM, THERE IS NO ME
IF THERE IS ME, THERE IS NO HIM!!

And it shall remain as it is till I can feel him changing and really can feel how much he wants me as his friend because from all his action now, he does not see me as one anymore, and if that is the case, I shall not bother either for he will have to pay the price. He will see that I don’t revolve around him only.

I am done with my FA[final assignment], like finally.
Not only that, I also changed by blogskin, thanks to Esther. Thanks babe!
Come come I show you, I show you…

Yup yup. This is my piece for my final assignment. 1m in height, width I’m not sure. Took me almost 3 days to do complete the whole thing. The coffin, the doll, the nail, hanging of it and painting. It may look easy but the process and effort put in is something you can never imagine.
Don’t suspect, the doll is I make myself de. Cutting of the figure, sewing, putting in the foam…all done on my own. ^^
Nail is done by Leslie. Thanks dude.
Coffin is also done by me. 2 days, inclusive of painting.

I’m really really pleased with my work, it is almost exactly what I had in mind.
Thanks Leslie, Dawn, Farhah, Limin, Rahman, and Zaihan!!! You guys helped me alot along the way!!!

Now, I want to show you some proof…

This was the one written yesterday, the one I have no idea who wrote it, it was still there this morning and guess what…someone improvised on it…and it became…

Yup, not written by as I said. But till now I still don’t know who wrote it. *touched with watery eyes*
I love everyone and whoever who wrote it!!!

Alrights. I can’t wait this week to be over, I really can’t wait. Sad, tomorrow Hanlin they all going KTV and I’m stuck with 2 presentations!!! OMG. I want to go KTV. Wanted to ask them if can put on Friday but like damn bad so I didn’t ask.  Have fun everyone, don’t miss me. I STILL WANT TO SING! Plus, I miss my friends, it’s been long since I met them. Gosh, I miss them!!! I miss them. Everyone. All the girls and all the guys. Guess I won’t be able to meet them till Sat when I go for lunch with Van and Jieni. I can’t wait to meet them as well!!

Can we meet on Friday? Anyone, on friday? P-L-E-A-S-E!!!
I’m dying to meet you people, really, dying to meet you all. I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!
ok, I’m not that desperate. Hais.

:D