i wish people in our clique know what to do and not what to do.
be it friends or not, better yet good friends, so long as there are people going home with you, everyone is responsible for everyone's safety.

i dun wish bad things to happen. you know who am i referring to. and yes, im angry, very angry.
do you evr worry what may happen to kailin and vanessa. just because you wan to follow miss zaleha and just because you dun wan to be late to meet your cousin, you decide to forgo the safety of your friends?
this is not the first you are behaving the way you are. just ask yourself, everytime a teacher appear, you can forget about your friends totally and leave them behind. have you ever tout that vanessa and kailin may be raped, robbed, combed by a group of bad people and this is not the worst scene, if something really happens to them, can you bear responsibity for it, can you answer their parents?
you said that you asked kailin to come along, ok, fair enough but did you make it a point that kailin really came along? no, you did'nt. you just walk off with miss zaleha, just like that.
you said, you turned back and kailin and vanessa was already not in sight, what makes you think that theymay be on their way home? did'nt it crossed your mind that they may be taken away, they may be lost, no you did'nt, you just left. why cant you make a call to one of them or if your phone is spoiled, find some way or another to find out their safety. this is basic responsibilty.

everyone knows that you treat teacher more than anything. and its true because everyone can see it is so. each time miss zaleha or miss cheong appears, you will follow them and leave us behind not knowing what to do, especially during lunch time. how many times we have to wait for you just because you want to be with teachers causing us to wait for you like stupid idiots?

this is not the teachers' fault you know, its yours! let me tell you, we all know that you like being with teachers so we accept it. but to me, last friday was too far already and ytd was the last straw. last friday, during our ball game. we agreed to meet at 12 and what happens? i call vanessa at 12.20 and what did she tell me? she said that you and her was in school helping miss zaleha!!! again, it is teachers that make us wait! and it is your fault because you know that we are meeting at 12 but you still decide to do something else. NVM! you came after that and to us was, “哇！他终于来了！” but again, you came to say hi to us, put your bag down, took your wallet and handphone and ta-dah, run off with miss zaleha to tampines mall leaving us stun!

if this is how you treat your friends, then im really disappointed. if you ask me why am i so angry, to me this is principle! to treat your friends that has been there for you all the time, the way they deserve to be treated, if not one day, you are just gonna lose them all. i dun wan to see another vanessa, come finding us, crying saying that you leave her behind.

and once more, this is not the teacher's fault, its yours.

what am i doing everyday?! rot at home, like duh.
there is so nothing to do..
i hope we can go basketball.ing this friday because im really darn bored.

i wan my kbox session and i wan to go window shopping with the girls.
i wan my orchard date with mr turtle as well!!! argh!!!
boredom is killing me. freaking out.

well, at least i have plans like what.......next friday?
meeting shijie at THE MUSHROOM and den go for the FMD thing.
God, i must wait till then?

can we like find something to do?
like going bowling or pool, it beats staying at home and having the tv on like what, all day long?
talking to myself at home and comforting myself saying the day is fun!?

i think i have rot myself
and mushrooms are growing out already,
maybe fungis as well.

get me something to do!


he is not mine, who am i to tell you to say no?!

this was taken in outside the venue where the dinner was held. it was beside a pool!!! kaiwei and i:)

sing yee and i:)

weiling and i:) i din expect her to wear a dress. i never tout i would ever see her in dress.

cherie and i:)

hey.


nope, this is not the post for prom last night because, currently, im still collecting photos from all over my friend network. so yup, it will come anyway. stay tune. but for now, lets have a sneak look at some of the photos.

this is the few girls i hang out with when i was in junyuan, they are beyond words and i thank God they entered my life. so, from left: shermeen, me, cherie, sharon, mining, kailin and evon
there are some missing, specially vanessa.

prom post will come soon. :)

almost a week back, i went to watch high school musical and i was really touched by it.
i mean, thats the end of high school musical, like thats the end of my secondary school days.
and i was almost moved to tears.

this show represents goodbye and to me, its like saying goodbye to my life in secondary school. for the past 4 years, through ups and downs, from childish-ness to maturity, from the dependence on adults to learning how to solve problems on our own, learning to forgive then learning to forget. who dares to say school is nothing but books and studies? i was thought more than that. school has taught me friendship, love, relationship. and that is something that will take me through the years.

the thought of having to let go these years that i gone through is really dreadful because i will no longer go through this and the only way that i can go through it once more is by looking back at all the memories.

will i forget everything? can i let go? going to school now but nomore going to class? will i miss the canteen food which i was so sick of or maybe all the chats and jokes we had while we were eating? will i miss the GB juniors although sometimes i really just cant control them but instead miss all the stupid but funny actions? will i miss their cheerfulness and seriousness? will i miss those days wehen i cried over studying? will i miss those times when i quarrelled with my girlfriends and crying over it but knowing where our faults are?

school life is like my life. now i know how much school is to me. i spent nearly everyday in school, its like my home and the people there are my family. the friends, the teachers. i see them more than i see my parents and sometimes, this "family" of mine means more than myself and i know, im going to miss this home of mine because this home has my tears, my smiles, my laughter, my memories and most importantly, my family.

i remember that very day when i first stepped foot into Junyuan.
i was so so so reluctant to leave primary school even though it was'nt the best thing that happened to me.
everything was so strange and so "it's not my world".
i hated the idea of being in a new class with noone i know, noone, except Fadhly who is my primary school classmate. he become my buddy in the end. i was very quiet and i din take any liking for anyone at all. maybe. but it was more likely because i knew nobody.

sec 2, became a turning point in my life eventually because that was the best year i had in secondary school. it was when i started to know seniors and become great friends with them. that was also when i got to know MICHELLE, KAIWEI, SHERMEEN, EVON, CHERIE, SAM, AMOS, HUILI, HUJI, TINGTING, GERALD, JIAWEI, HERMAN, EUGENE, BAOLING and many others.
Of couse, everyone din hit off well at first, specially for me who have an unfriendly face. things took a turning point when pam and i decided to sit at the back. that was when i started interacting with everyone besides pam and their impression of me started to change as well.
that was how 2E3 slacker came about. i still can remember all the funny events that took place and rumoured couples that the class came up with. life in 2e3 was brilliant and unforgettable.
sec 2 was also the start of my council life. it was also then, more friends were made. KAILIN, JINGCHEE, ELAINE, JASMINE, CHERLY, FERLYN, KHAI, RONNEY, TIFFANY etc.
girl's brigade was also an experience i can never forget. VANESSA, JIENI, KRISTAL, CLARIE, MEISHI, JASMINE and many more.
that was also the time when my first experience of emcee started. with HASANAH.

sec 3 year was unforgettable because that was the time when my love life had a big turning point. i still remember how i knew hanlin and both of us went through a dramatic love story. hahas. :) that was probably the most wonderful time i had although there were much tears involved.

sec4 was like a year of goodbyes. but it was also the year when my friends and i started cherishing and spending time together more than ever. biantai was thus created. we went through the horrible processes of serious mugging for the horrible O'levels but that process to me was worth everything. everything worth fighting for. i also went to deyang with the school. hahas:) at least i have such experience.



secondary school was'nt as bad as i though afterall. if given a chance, i will still choose junyuan because the experiences i had and the friends i made as priceless and valuable and noone can replace it for me. :)

i dun understand, i just feel that you guys are a bunch of realistic idiots and i thank God i dun need you guys in my life. what's your problem with me? its not as if i have done anything wrong against in guys. since you guys ignored me once, i dun wish to hang out with you guys as well. dun look at me as if i heck care how you guys feel because i done my part and trust me, i have not reject any of your requests or questions or anything as long as it was within my means.
and yes, i DUN care how you guys see me, im sick of your realistic characters.

i always wondered why do i hang out with people when by right i should be hanging out with you all. but i realized it was a waste of time thinking of this question and is also a waste of time answering it. i dun feel real when im with you guys. you guys are the only group of people who can make me feel lonely within a crowd. and since we are no longer any related, i shall just shoot my mouth. no matter how, mo matter when, no matter what, im just invisible in all of your eyes and yes, im unhappy at first because i feel that i did not do anything wrong in the first place to recieve this kind of treatment of you guys.

i feel disgusted being related to you guys but seems like i dun have a choice, thank goodness it was not permanent, if it was, i rather die than let you guys step over me. to tell you people the truth, im almost numb to the way you guys behave, all i do is just do my part and be true to you guys. i dun care what you guys think about me because i DUN NEED the impressions of you guys because you guys dun give me that true feelings.

i think you people are just no different from those in the formal dinner, on the outside, you guys are friendly towards each other but on the outside, you actually have schemes against one another. so untrue and so bleah. im lost for words to describe you people. i can touch my heart and say i have done nothing against anyone of you. but that doesnt mean i dun need you people because in the first place, i was never a part of anyone. none of you have ever considerd how i feel at all. but i dun care.

i have friends out there that do. what i need is them not you guys. to me you guys are nothing great because in my eyes, you guys are just a bunch of inconsiderate, realistic bunch of idiots and i tell people that whenever they ask why i dun like you. and if any of you guys one day ask me, my answer will still be the same.

soon, soon i wont be part of any of you. no. wrong. i was never part of anyone of you in the first place. soon, i wont be related with you anymore. noone will ever put me and you guys tgt to chat.

taking this chance, i like to thank my friends and cousins who are always there whenever i need them and not leaving me alone when im at my weakest. thank you all for being there when i feel alone and listening to me. thank you all for letting me know im not alone. you people are the greatest blessings and comfort God can ever give me and i hope this blessing will last me till one day im gone.

today was a day of fun...out for prom shopping with my girlfriends. :)
first stop, BUGIS!!! hahas.
suppose to meet them at 1030 but cos sharon overslept, so we met at arnd 11.
there were, sharon, evon, vanessa, cherie, shermeen, minning, kailin, weiling, sing yee, hui rong and i!!!
so many of us, so happy. the best thing was my parents actually extended my curfew till 8 but i went home at 9 in the end and i din get a scolding. hahas. had my dinner with my girlfriends for the first time. whees. hahas.
anyway, we headed for lunch at YOSHINONYA[did i spell that correctly?]
we split up when we arrived at bugis - weiling, singyee and huirong - me and the rest.
we shopped around the 2nd floor since that was where most shops which sold dresses were.

this pink tube dress was the first one i tried. nice? my GFs said it look sweet on me but the word "sweet" does'nt go well with me. but i liked it. cost $70 plus. wanted to match it with a white half jacket and seriously, it was really sweet looking.

i tried this at bugis street, "the changing place". i was quite happy with this one. what do you think? this could be wore in 2 ways. i tout it was sweet and simple. i was really satisfied with this one because it was the ideal dress i had in my mind.
kailin was also happy with this gold layered dress. we said it looked "princessy" on her but she had to give it up because her mother said it look fat in the photo although we thought otherwise.


erm...we took some randon pics as well. this 2 were taken when sharon was trying on her beautiful dress[her prom dress] bo liao rite? hahas. :)
anything arnd us can make us high and bo liao, just like the next picture.

when was i ever the cast of "high school musical"? I'm so proud of myself can?! hahas. i think it was quite cool just that troy(zac efron) and gabriella(vanessa hugdens) were missing in the photo. nvm. sharon, after buying her dress saw this photo, got soooo high, she also wanted a photo. oh. i was so shy taking this photo, firstly because it was RYAN EVANS[i liked him] beside me and secondly because it was in a public area, there were people around can?! shy shy....


the following pic is not correct and no one should take it as a life example:

































dun ask me why was i doing this because i also dunno why. i was really interested in this guy not beacuse of his look although he had that mature, charming look but it was actually his HEIGHT that attracted me. i noticed him when we were at the mrt station simply becase he was too tall. we din expect him to alight at the same station at us, city hall. hahas. :)
shermeen started stalking him first because she wanted to catch up with him. his long legs can bring him far. she failed. so i took over.

let me tell you. following him may be an exciting but it was also a TIRING experience. i was following from the back, walking. but soon, i realized, i was running. his legs were really very long. it took me alot of energy to stand beside him. i had to pretend i was rushing for time by looking my watch while i was running and pretending to answer calls that were rushing me. but too bad, we were discovered and he went opposite direction. oops. hahas. :)
so in conclusion:

this is just something beautiful i wanna share. it was actually wter droplets. evon and i were amazed by it. looks like diamond when you look at it. *beautiful*

thats it. haha:)

no mountains too high above, no oceans wide cos together or not, our dance wont stop.