sometimes, its difficult to realize the facts that you are not part of a group of people even if you hang out with them all the time and when you finally realized it, its where the real pain and heartaches comes in. even if you tried your best to blend in with people of whom you think is your clique, you will realize tht not everyone in your "clique" thinks the same way and thats where you will start to feel that you are so called not part of them or maybe known as "extra".

when you have been sorrounded by people you love all the time and realized that people you love just dun see you as being that important, you will finally know what is the meaning of loneliness and then you will think bck and realized that their actions in the past had spoke a thousand times : "you are not part of us", that is where an invisible slap will come right down the face but the pain is not there but its in the heart.

this is why i sometimes feel that i rather be alone and not have many friends around. i rather just have one friend that is true to me and not many friends who may talk or gossip behind my back. since i already know the meaning if alone as im the only child, im already use to the kind of quietness.

do you know that the defination of quietness and loneliness of a child having siblings and the only child is very different. it hardly needs any difficulty for an only child to get use to quietness as the their idea of quietness is very not similar as compared a normal person who have siblings. to her, being alone at home, no one to talk to is not quietness neither is it called loneliness, its because they are already use to it thus they are not afraid of being alone, even if they are in a group or a class filled with many people. its not difficult for them to keep quiet if they make a choice to do so. that goes the same for me.

it hurts really when you realized that people you talk to may eventually be not true to you at all. and after tmr, im just gonna keep quiet, not that kind of quiet, but being able to be with friends even if i live in my own world.

haha!!! i got a NEW PHONE!!! Its a sony ericsson c702, new in the market of price $448 without contract but lucky me --- i got it for FREE!!! hahas.


*currently waving the phone about in the living room and jumping while mummy is scolding* hahas.









as you can see, its water resistant and also dust resistant, thus its suitable for almost all kind of weather.
its a may be a cyber shot phone but everything about it is just as marvellous and functions are just so good. hahas.
presently, im adapting to the keypads and adapting very well, but im waiting for my 2git memory card. hahas.
all this is thanks to my dad because he was given it free for extending his contract. i checked out its comments and its quite well recognized in the world and has been out in spain since feb.
hahas.
so i think im gonna sell off my nokia phone.
its gonna be sadding but its need to reservice all the time is driving me crazy and this phone came in at the right time. hahas.
im so happy.

haha. today was the wondeful teacher's day celebration and i have totally no regrets of going you know. its really was just that great. so here are some photos that i took today, i called today photo's day as well. i mean, can you believe it? i took like 50 photos today. buahaha.
*so excited and start jumping around the room for 10 mins.*
so...tadah!!!

as you can tell, this is my wonderful korkor who had loved me dearly for the past 4 years, and i love him too...!!!


this was taken before the concert, dun you think i look odd because i wasnt wearing orange?! shucks man, should have brought camp tee along, at least i blend into the color and not looking odd with black!


this is my well-loved RBF which stands for let me see...Rotten Best Friend, Really Bad friend and Rare Best Friend. cant you see how loving we are? we hugged each other on the cam in broad daylight. oh gosh, im turning les.




hahas. this is kaiwei wor. my fringe was like hers you know but i was forced to snip it off. *bangs table with fist!*


life aint perfect without my laopo, vanessa. haha. wa lao. lost to her in one-on-one today. so sad can!!!


i cried cos of her today cos she is leaving for china to concieve, ahhh!!! im gonna miss her sooo much.


this 2 ah, i hang out with them like all the time xecpet for weiling. haha

ANDREW LAU!!! haha. yup, he is my famous or maybe infamous bio-chem tuition tecaher and i love him to bits ok. hahas. i mean where can you find an ah beng teacher who is not beng at all? correct not? correct rite?

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and now!!! my life will be missing something without these guys around!!!


my MR TURTLE!!!...hahahas. i love him lots lots lots ok.

hahas. this is XX!!! xiuxian. hahas. suppppper irritating and suppper funny.


this photo cute rite? i like his photo alot ok!!!! like we so happy, in actual fact, we are. haha.



wen su!!! another of my korkor that loves me lots lots lots and in return i oso love him lots lots lots.




ok, this is over le...i love MR FERAJ...its an open secret in my clique you know. haha.


one important person is missing make the photo abit incomplete...can you guess who?!

its RONNEY POH WEI REN!!! and where is he? working lor. so sad rite!


so what if im short so long as my kor is willing to bend down to my height! so sweet rite.


YOU STILL OWE MY HAGEN DAZ!!!



ya. thats about it. gonna study with RBF tmr. hahas.

now...this post, is specially for my RBF who is left handed. muahaha.

when battles were fought using swords and shields, right handed people were more likely to survive than left handed. This was because the right-handed fighters held their shield in their left hand to protect their heart from the opponents’ sword (as your heart is slightly to the left in your chest). Fighters who fought with their left hand exposed their heart and were more likely to die.
to rbf: right handers are survivours!!

When a person is right handed, according to scientific theory, the left hemisphere of the brain is the dominant hemisphere. The left hemisphere of the brain is said to be the rational side of the brain. This side of the brain responds to verbal instructions, solves problems by logically and sequentially looking at the parts of things, tends to look at differences in things, is more planned and structured, prefers established certain information, prefers talking and writing, prefers multiple choice tests, and also the left hemisphere of the brain controls feelings. A recent study found that right handed people use the right side of the brain to focus on an entire image; however the left side of the brain is used to focus on the details within the image.
to rbf: this shows that right handed people uses their brain better!!!

85 to 90 percent of the world's population is right handed. Nine in every ten people are said to be right handed. On average, right handed people live nine years longer than left handed people.
to rbf: haahah!!! its proven at last that we live longer.. lalas

A good number of technological devices today are made primarily for right handed individuals, such as refrigerators, scissors, microwaves, can openers, button down shirts, guitars, and even military rifles.
to rbf: see! people create things at the advantage of the right handers.

Throughout history being left-handed was considered as negative - the Latin word sinister meant "left". Hence the many negative connotations associated with the word "left-handed": clumsy, awkward, unlucky, insincere, sinister, malicious, and so on.
to rbf: so sad...dun you think?


Left handed people write from left to right, so that their hand smears the fresh ink across the page. Those who are right handed do not touch the ink until they get to the next line, so the ink has a few seconds to dry.
If you grab a coffee mug with your left hand, the picture will be facing away from you. Those who are right handed get to look at the picture while they drink.
Left handed people have little choice where they get to sit at large dinners, lest they bump elbows with a right handed person.
Car stick-shifts are on the right side of the driver. Less frequently used controls, such as headlight switches, are on the left side.
to rbf: look at all of the disadvantages, i never knew about the difficulties you have. im sorry...haahah

this is all for the sake of fun so people, although these may be true but i have no offences or any similar grudges againse left handers. if offended, i am sorry.

tmr is teacher's day celebration and i can bet, its gonna be just so BORED...and the only thing that may be fun could be the presence of some of the graduates, although i think i may not have time to catch up with them cos after that still must coach jinhuat social studies. haha. cant believe it right, but i wan make him pass.

today is quite a quick day to pass maybe because im anticipating the day to end, even POA test ended earlier than expected. i think of all my subjects, im gonna give up POA most likely. i just cant get the hang of it, even if i do practices and stuff but no...hais.
today was also kind of emotional. my FT kinda of cried today and i felt kinda of sour. i mean, although i dun like her, but no matter what it kinda of hurt in the heart and i tried my best to encourage her. i wonder who is that second person, but i somehow think i know who is it, looking by the recent incidents, but if im rite or not, i have no idea.

had chem practical test today. wasnt that bad, i passed quite well, my only problem is i cant figure what is the final conclusion as to what is the X substance kinda of thing. im getting xiuxian and jiawei to teach me chem though and i wanted to ask either ronney and hanlin to teach me maths too, but i think ronney may be working and hanlin...he where got time...people got "loved one" to pei de leh, cannot rob him of his time rite? cannot like dat de. so, i think maths im on my own.

hais..
gtg complete my CW le.
chaos people...

i watched 法正先锋II till like, 1 plus in the morning and when i tried waking up, i practically had to force myself out of the warm, comfortable bed, just feel like laying there for the whole day. *i miss my potato couch days!!!*

had breakfast with RBF, evon, cherie and vanessa.
me and RBF ok le...^-^
thx for the concern people. hahs.
im still rushing my coursework A which is due like...i dunno...erm...3 months back
but they changed the deadline to this friday. haha.

later still got tuition and im still in school.
which means its gonna be another rushing session again.
home, half hour
bath and dry, half hour
ah ma house, half hour.
in total is one and half hour.
if i go home at 4, by 530, i can reach my ah ma house...
hmmm...still got time. so i shall leave at 4.

3 As in my ordinary wizarding level.
can or not?
i have one le, i need 2 more.
so its english and humans.
but english, i dunno, my cousin's english so powerful but she got a b3, i think i gone case.
i can only afford get one C, and thats reserved for my maths.
the rest i MUST get a B and above. ahhh!!!! *-*

k la. today, i joined table with keith
so at least got people to talk to.
we were talking about him and ah pong.
but no conclusion de la. just talking.
i think they are just disappointed.
lala.

k la. gtg. cant blog further.
byes.

hehe, still not very use to blogger, feel very weird to be using
this is my wonderful and my cutest buddy...DAI HAN YUE!!!
the pooh she is holding is my present for her and she bought me a watch, so sweet rite? she called the poog xixi, after my chinese name. haha. dun you think she look abit like pooh. love her lots.

finally, i can switch back to blogger
i used this skin like donkey years ago...i think the donkey already died...
k..thats cold..

anyways, i will still use my journal but thats if blogger cork up again
i love harry potter...hahas.

today was not a good day for me
i quarrel with RBF over something stupid but i really dun wanna apologise because i dun see that it is my fault, i think its for her own sake. its not like i dun trust her something but really, i know she is smarter than me but that does not give her the reason not to study...everyone is freaking crazy over the upcoming prelims but she? i believe she got study but at this rate, it may go entirely wrong.
if i were to apologised, the only reason i would is because i was abit harsh in my tone. i dun feel good quarrelling with her, really but somehow if she still dun see the reason why i scolded her, i dun see the reason to reflect on myself.
elanie and pam told me that this form of encouragement is not gonna work...but...

to RBF
you should know why and i believe you also know why i shouted at you today, people who is not suppose to know about your r/s with him have somehow come to know about you, he is watching your actions. i believe you got study but from what i see, you cant focus. you told me yourself that last saturday you were unable to study, you said it yourself. you also told me ever since you are with him, you haven really pei your mum and i expected you to pei her on saturday only to find out you are out with him again. i know that you are hot on heels now but im speaking the fact. i been thru wat you been thru and i know that kind of happiness and excitement but you also must know when to be rational. you said you know how to strategize your time and cant be studying everyday but i can tell you, everyone IS studying everyday. please dun let this affect you. scold me all you want, all you want. what im doing now is out of a friend's concern, if you think that all im talking is rubbish and being immature, dun expect anything from me anymore. if you think my words are something unworth to listen, then really, forget it. so many times i have been hinting to you to take note of your studies but seems like you dun catch the hint. you may think why am i putting this so heavily across, but my answer is i forsee the seriousness in this. if you still dun get what i mean, den really, forget everything i said, but i may end up like someone who used to be close to you.

i admit, i did not cry nor did i feel guilty. ahhh...dun say le la.
i got 21/30 for my CW B...haha. so happy la.
gtg home le...still in school...haha. chao. =D

finally, i can switch back to blogger
i used this skin like donkey years ago...i think the donkey already died...
k..thats cold..

anyways, i will still use my journal but thats if blogger cork up again
i love harry potter...hahas.

today was not a good day for me
i quarrel with RBF over something stupid but i really dun wanna apologise because i dun see that it is my fault, i think its for her own sake. its not like i dun trust her something but really, i know she is smarter than me but that does not give her the reason not to study...everyone is freaking crazy over the upcoming prelims but she? i believe she got study but at this rate, it may go entirely wrong.
if i were to apologised, the only reason i would is because i was abit harsh in my tone. i dun feel good quarrelling with her, really but somehow if she still dun see the reason why i scolded her, i dun see the reason to reflect on myself.
elanie and pam told me that this form of encouragement is not gonna work...but...

to RBF
you should know why and i believe you also know why i shouted at you today, people who is not suppose to know about your r/s with him have somehow come to know about you, he is watching your actions. i believe you got study but from what i see, you cant focus. you told me yourself that last saturday you were unable to study, you said it yourself. you also told me ever since you are with him, you haven really pei your mum and i expected you to pei her on saturday only to find out you are out with him again. i know that you are hot on heels now but im speaking the fact. i been thru wat you been thru and i know that kind of happiness and excitement but you also must know when to be rational. you said you know how to strategize your time and cant be studying everyday but i can tell you, everyone IS studying everyday. please dun let this affect you. scold me all you want, all you want. what im doing now is out of a friend's concern, if you think that all im talking is rubbish and being immature, dun expect anything from me anymore. if you think my words are something unworth to listen, then really, forget it. so many times i have been hinting to you to take note of your studies but seems like you dun catch the hint. you may think why am i putting this so heavily across, but my answer is i forsee the seriousness in this. if you still dun get what i mean, den really, forget everything i said, but i may end up like someone who used to be close to you.

i admit, i did not cry nor did i feel guilty. ahhh...dun say le la.
i got 21/30 for my CW B...haha. so happy la.
gtg home le...still in school...haha. chao. =D